hello...! my name is an anagram of lie in okay... -.- hahas its lame... whee... im bored... yeah i've apparently finished my montauge but its pathetic... wonder if sal has finished hers... hahas. ohh and yeah, i've started on the starting of my story... the one i was discussing wif u joey. or more lik pestering you xD hahas shall i post it up here since i have nth else to write abt? i havent been very active lately... jus sitting at home growing mould and collecting dust. lol... ok this is the starting of some fantasy story im gonna try to write which is tink will fail miserably... hahas...
*start*
Ten more minutes... It was going to be midnight soon and Daphne Lucifer laid in bed, awaiting the arrival of her 12th birthday. She watched the second hand of her bedside clock dreamily as it counted down the seconds left till twelve. The dull ticking of the clock echoed softly through the room as it bored its way into her head. Having grown tired of gazing at the numbers, she shifted her position to stare at her bedroom ceiling and eventually, closed her eyes. Slowly, she sank into a deep slumber.

She saw a face looking at her; it seemed old and tired, yet gentle and kind. The soft grey eyes sparkled against the snow-white face. She felt herself being enveloped in warmth and comfort, as though the man before her had stretched out his arms and pulled her into an embrace. She continued to gaze at the face, feeling a strange sense of familiarity, as though she knew the man the face belonged to, as though she had seen it many times before. There was a long moment where nothing was said. Then, she heard a soft whispering; it didn’t seem like words, but more like thoughts which floated along with the songs of silence that danced around her.

As she reached her hand out to touch the face, a sharp scream reverberated against the invisible walls which confined her and the man. The scream tore through the calm, shattering the peace and happiness. The face had contorted into an expression of immense pain, the beautiful eyes now tightly shut as if afraid to open and see what would now stand before them. The warmth and comfort had long fled and in its place lingered an unbearable air of loneliness and anguish.

She stumbled back as whatever had initially blocked and distorted the rest of the man's body quickly disappeared to reveal a being she had never imagined. It had collapsed onto the ground, its body curled up in soundless agony. Wild black hair now covered the face as the man-if it could still be considered one-hung his head low in defeat to the pain which had overwhelmed him. His arms wrapped around his bare chest, as if to keep himself from falling apart. His fingers dug deep into the skin of his back, drawing up crimson-red blood which stood out in sharp contrast to the pale skin.

What left Daphne Lucifer thunderstruck were the leathery protrusions on either side of the man’s now bloody back. They could be considered wings, but were torn and had gashes all over. They hung loosely against the man's helpless body and seemed to tremble ever so slightly. Like the hair, the wings too were inky black.

The man continued to lay there, his arms still around himself and knuckles gone white from having clutched his own flesh so tightly. Then, he looked up at her and she screamed at the sight of his pupil-less eyes, but no sound came from her lips.

She awoke abruptly, sitting up in bed and clutching the bed sheets tightly in her clenched fists. She was panting heavily, temporarily unsure of her surroundings before she remembered that she was still in her bed, far from the dreadful place whose image continued to haunt her mind-if it even existed at all.

She could still remember every sound and every sight; she could remember losing herself in the comforting gaze he offered her and in an instant later, falling down the horrible depths of those cold, white eyes. The whispers before the scream had been planted deeply into her memory and as the image of the man flashed through her mind, she could still hear those words playing continuously in her head.

"Happy birthday, my daughter..."
*end*

hahas. there. lol now i jus haf to figure out how to continue it... nvm... shall leave tt for later... cant wait to get the fifth book from sal and start reading... ive suddenly fallen in love wif hary potter books... lol im slow yes i noe. ive been on saturn all this while you see(:

sigh. im in a dreamy-lazy-drifting state now... im not exactly thinking what im typing...my pinky finger wants to type.. it feels weird not pressing anything... havent updated for so long... been doing alot of reading.. yeah... i agree wif you sal, harry potter is fabulous. hahas. bring the fifth book on mon k? i cant believe im reading so slowly... and ur fav book is the first one issit? i like.. the fourth one? hahas... maybe.. they're all so nice... lol... well... i dont have much to say... just that chinese speech training sux... and sal you owe me a letter. stop spamming and write me one... and yeah... im rambling... blahhhh. can i end this now? think i shall... cant wait for sch to b over but i cant believe i have to start on the project work for nxt year... and maths hw issit? cant rmbr.... sigh.

sigh... i feel... strangely relieved. lik some great weight has been lifted off my shoulders... like everything is more relaxed now... hahas. i guess you get the idea. well yeah, i dont really have much to say, just updating this for updating's sake. hahas. well, no sch tmr and on tues, shud start preparing for math. well, i'll try. anw, at paya lebar today wif my mum and sis, i was listening to this really nice song on my shuffle, and jus now i cudnt rmbr wad song it was. hahas. anw, i found it in the end. its one of those many a1 songs. ohh a1 rules~ hahas. they're really not bad you noe? hahas. though sometimes they sound a bit weird but on the whole its okaye. anw, yeah this is the song. hahas. its IF ONLY by a1. hahas. the lyrics are nice i guess. like a rose is nice too. hahas. whee. oohh yeah. ying its so unfair! you get money to revise. hmph. waaaa. $.$ well, lets see what else i can jabber on abt... ohh yeah. ice milo is nice. hahas. random-ness? and chels, why did you call me and ask me whter i rmbr how to make a banana shake? hahas. anw, it wasnt nice. banana shakes arent really good. make a oreo one. i tink u dump in oreo bits, vanilla ice cream and some other random things. xD hahas. the funfair was so long ago, wad makes you think i can still rmbr how to make. anw, the funfair was rather rediculous. i rmbr being very barbaric to the banana. i sorta jus grabbed it and wrenched it into half. hahas. then like dump into the blender and then throw in all the other random things. hahas. it was really gross. everything jus sort of just of turned into mash. hahahaha. okayes. ohh and yeah the person who ordered it kinda looked at me with this very freaked out look. hahas. it was really funny. and i didnt get to actually spend my coupons. just donated them to the stall and also spent most of it buying left over ice cream. oooo. i rmbr swearing nvr to eat strawberry ice cream again. hahas. fond memories... hahas. so corny xD was the oreo shake that nice? i rmbr making it alot but i nvr really got to taste it. but there were times where i made too much and dumped the extra into a cup and drank it for myself. hee hee. xD wheee. funfair was kinda fun on the whole i guess... wheee. hmmms... shud i end this post here? im kinda not used to the chuncky-ness of this. "i see an angel and sees me too." hahas. a line from an a1 song... jus happened to be playing a song and i was wondering what else to say. ((:

GREAT. why issit that my mum has to come ruin my mood everyday? esp while im updating... sigh. she just came in again... and was like, "show me what your doing on the com! *pause awhile* blogging! what are you doing on a blog huh?! dont need to study issit? you better study i tell you. if you dont get over 75 you watch out!" she like just whacked me on the head and went off...i think she is crazy. 75? not even sal managed to get 75 for lang arts-no offence, i jus meant to say ur really pro at LA. the only way i cud get 75 is if i multiply my marks by 2. sigh. i just realised, if she had told me that before the lang arts paper, i wud haf done badly on pupose. so now is maths left. fine i shant study then. its not like she actually cares. sigh. all she can be bothered abt is my sis. she doesnt even help me with my homework. she doesnt help me revise. she just expects good grades to pop out of no where. she just goes "study!" and then expects me to know everything. and whats her prob? today on my way to my grandma's hse i was lik reading comics while walking and she was lik "stop reading or -sth sth sth-" cant rmbr actually. and den after awhile i started reading again and she said i was starting to get defiant (?!!) ha. ha. reading while walking? it doesnt even come close to being a significant thing. i do that everyday. hahas. wad kinda of prob does she haf? she doesnt even noe one quater of the things i do. sigh. shall end now b4 i get start blabbering on abt other stuff my mum yelled at me for and some random scolding my dad gave me which didnt really register. i was stoning. ha.

hello. hahas. im... bored? hahas. i should be studyin. my maths is on wed! i havent started practising! i havent finished the maths paper even... sigh. this is sad. really sad. even ying has started doing revision ws... waaaa. hahas. i have nth to say... ive been slacking all day... shall end this soon... before i turn into a loon...

hahas. okaye that rhymes! fine. bye bye

happy mid autumn festival! hahas. the lanterns are so pretty. i saw one house right, they hung the traditional paper lanterns thingy on the trees and then lit them up. looked so pretty... sigh... im in a state of happy-depressiveness. sigh is that even possible? i dunno what to say. science was a big flop today. im really sure i failed. didnt noe how to do so much... the virus stuff and the vernier calipus too.. EEKS. hahas... sigh. im kinda bored... and sad. and yet happy. ive suddenly decided that i want to write more poems... as in meaningful poems and not just those moody ones... i think im gonna try for the lang arts camp that one... i shud start thinking up ideas. hahas. wheeeee. maths paper on wed... no sch on mon and tues... woohoo! i better start studyin... and practising... hahas. i havent even finished my prac papers.... SIGH. im such a shi bai person.... and here i am rather clueless at wad else to type abt.... jabber jabber. joey my cat is NOT a rabbit! rawr. its a CAT. okay? it meows and doesnt like carrots! hahas. hee hee. my smses have long exceeded the limit already. current count is 1274... and i stil have like... 16 days more to go? SIGH. its unfair.... i shud cut down on my smses. i shud jus turn off my phone in sch... im pretty sure that once the exams are over my smses will go sky high.

ying! u fell aslp on the phone! hahas. sigh... lanterns are pretty. ohh and i managed to get away wifout eating a single piece of mooncake. hahaha. all the calories... >< im not gonna risk it. im putting on enough weight already. and im broke! i need MONEY! money money money~ hahas. have to save up i guess.... hahas okayes im done rambling

THE END

ying, this is for you. and other random ppl, mind your own business.

ying im really sorry. i didnt know it affected you so much. its... just that i never knew. you werent one to express urself much, and i only really got to know you this year. im really sorry if all ive said or done has hurt you in some way, but im really really sorry. i know i've not been a good fren but i have not forgotten wad you've done for me. im really sorry but i dunno wad else i can do but apologise. i know im pathetic, i know what i've done is wrong and i hope you'll forgive me.

im truly sorry
please, you're making me worry
i know that i've been mean
so now im coming clean

there were some things i didnt share
simply cause i didnt dare
i was afraid of what you would say
and hid them from you each passing day

i was afraid of what you would do
i just had no clue
i didnt want you hurt
and for what i've done go ahead and treat me like dirt

at times i thought you knew
at times you acted like a different you
all i can do now is apologise
wad else can i do otherwise

im not trying to find an excuse
for i know its no use
'im sorry' is all i can say
for i cant think of another way

please forgive me.

hello. whee. my blog will b officially 3months old on 5th oct! whee. 2 more days(: hahas. ok yeah im lame. blah. tmr is.... lang arts paper 2.... only one paper so quite short. whee! i need to study history and science.. shall kiip this a short post... or considerably short one? hahas. well... today was chinese... paper 1 and 2. yeah the letter thingy which i completely messed up and the pathetic compo... it wasnt even a complete two pages and i saw ppl writing like 3/ pages! waaaa! hahas. my compos have always been lousy xD ohh and yeah the letter thing... i dont noe wads chuan ti zuo ye! hahahaha. okkies lets see... i shud b going to do revision in like 10mins? give or take 5. hahas. lalala. hmms wad else? ohh yeah. im tryin to dl the hxh musical thing... but its not doing very well you see. hahahas. its lik... moving VERY slowly... i tink i'll jus rely on joey to dl, den go her hse watch. hahahahs ; wheee. my sms has gone sky high! must learn to refrain! >< archie comics are amusing... was reading one jus now during dinner. you noe josie and the pussycats? i dont see wads so great abt melody... shes a BIMBOOOOOO. hahas. like ying! ((: wheee. ying is a bimbo. ying is a bimbo. ying is a bimbo. *sing song voice xD hahahas. cant wait for exams to be over! me sal and ying haf this shopping thing in plan but i need MONEY. money money money. waaaa. hahaha. im always in need of money... at least im not in debt now but during the hols no allowance! how? so many bday presents to get... i must save! i shall not eat mac/kfc more den once a week. i shall not spend more than 2 bucks on days tt we have lunch in sch. i must not splurge on drinks/chocolate/ice cream/erhs... and other random things. i think i wont be able to finish this post to go study. sigh... im procrastinating AGAIN. im stoning so much i think if all the time i've spent stoning was added together, i cud haf built a pyramid of cookies... wheee. hahas. i wan cookies... cant wait for eoys to be over. two days down and 4 more to do! wheeee! hahas. im most worried abt history, science and maths. coz those are the subjects i can actually study for and i nvr can convince myself to study... theres jus no mood and so much distraction... sigh... tra la la. this is boring... shall end here and save my random crap for my 33rd post. its such a nice number larhs... hahas. toodles.

whee. i took 9mins to bathe... lol. hahas. okayes to continue on my short lil post. ouch... my middle finger hurts... esp when i type with it. feels so weird... hahas. okayes yeah... after the papers today we went to gatecrash joey's hse! wheeee. hahas. at first i was finishing my long overdue letter to sal. den i finished it and was gonna go write joey's letter... apparently it wasnt exactly possible in uhh... the state of un-peacefulness we were in. poor gina... hahas joey ur sis is really really nice larhs. if my sis brot over frens now and made such a big ruckus, i wud chase them out with pots and pans! ohh and maybe the ironing board too... but thats a lil too big. heehee.

anw, so we made a lot of noise yadda yadda. i think now tt the safest place in joey's room is the floor. hahas. everyone was piling onto the bed and there was like this... tangle(?) of limbs... hahas. and yeah obviously alot of screechin from sal and ying. hahaha. in the end me ying and sal went to take a nappy. the rest were like watching anime. stupid ying. go and fight with me for space on the bed. originally i was the only one on the bed... so happy to have it all to myself. den ying comes along and im butted to one corner... wa. ying snores! and you meany. left so much empty space on ur side and left me stuck to the wall... and sal, i sleep lik a dead log. it no wonder that you cudnt wake me up. wheeeee. hahas. haha. the angel of my phone o.O hahas. cal you'll nvr noe who tt is. mwahahaha. -.- jabber jabber jabber. ok lets see... ohh yeah. they were browsing the random contents of my inbox in my phone... is it that interesting? hahas. im so honoured tt u ppl love my phone so much! hahas.

ohh yeah b4 i posted the previous post, i was doing some getting-chased-out-of-your-room-studying. but i barely revised anything... sigh. stoning most of the while. you noe in like 100mins -or so cal says and i trust tt he can well.. read time- i only studied ONE chapter in the history textbook... only ONE. sigh.

chinese tmr. eeks! 4 hours of two compos and two compres. so... strenuous. hahas. is tt how you spell it? no right? okayes i really hope i do ok for tmr... sigh. im dead meat! i havent started studying for science... and you noe theres like.. SO MUCH TO STUDY. and i dont even haf the pp slides.. eeks. but nvm larhs. i can rmbr most of it... science is lik... less hard. hahas.cant wait for exams to be over... im gonna go crazy once its ends. WHEE. hahas shall end this post now since got nth else to say.

wheee. i have 4 mins to finish this post coz i gotta bathe. hahas. so lame. anw, yeah. 3mins left. wadeva. wads chentian's obsession wif tryin to crash ppl's com? or issit jus mine? hmph. lol... cool this webbie tt refreshes so many times a min... wheee. hahas. yeah geog and lang arts paper 1 today. tee hee hee... lang arts was pretty bad... unseen prose dunno wad to write and yeah very short ans... the compo not sure if will do ok. hope i pass! *fingers crossed

geog was jus completely lame! waaaa. i spelt levee at leeve... hahas. ohh and yeah, i forgot wad mt pinatubo was call... knew it was p-sth-tubo. ended up writing mt platubo. hahaha! okayes 1 min left. shall post and den post again once im done bathing. hahahaha. im so lame... WHEEE. ohh and yeah chinese is tmr... 4 hours. FOUR HOURS. i will DIE. sigh. i hope it'd be easy. okkies time to bathe. toodles!