Sunday, October 28, 2012

petrichor; breathe

The power of words; doubt; priorities; longing; thick hoodies; movies in bed; pancakes; cold toes and fingertips; guilt; resentment; stories; transformation; warm blankets; morning calls; cupcakes; lost courage; photographs; bad choices; empty promises; discipline; yearning; surprises; time; froyo; post its; escalators; daydreams; imaginary friends; pretence; expectations; making changes; hope; late night walks; holding on; control; plans; fear; realisation; triggers; a bunch of scattered thoughts


Will I one day take for granted the very thing I most yearn for today?
How can they live like that?


What would it be like for me?
We've only got a hundred years to live.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Surprise surprise

I'm here! Hahas it's been so long, I can't believe it's mid October already. 233 days till he comes back! Biz school has been keeping me really busy. The bell curve proves to be as scary as I'd excepted it to be.

That's the distribution for my DSC ops management test. My gut tells me 80% is alright but... I need that 4.5 for SEP D: I'm quite sure if I try for Ireland my parents will totally think it's for LC, which is true, so they might not let me go in the end :/ But places in London schools are too competitive :(

Last Saturday was Grab Huck Score which was really fun! We didn't do too well but it was kinda exciting. I didn't know half my teammates at all till the day of the tournament. I just turned up and learnt their names and played hahaha. It was awesome, I'm probably going for training this coming Tuesday if nothing crops up. I seem to have collected an excessive amount of school tees and jerseys too, the pile in my cupboard is frightening. I can probably not wash my clothes for a month and not run out of tees @@

School-wise, Thursday I had my MNO presentation which really took a great weight of my chest. I forgot my lines quite a bit and said some rubbish but oh wells :S We'll get the feedback from my tutor this coming Thursday, hopefully it's not too bad. She seemed pretty excited about the topic we were presenting hahas, I think it's cause it's a company she can relate to :D Now to move on to the next presentation, argh. So far in this semester, I've completed 1 video project and 1 presentation for MNO, 1 micro project for econs and 1 other project for business law. That's so many projects! :O Biz law was for that crazy day I stayed up till 6am to read through 67 pages of the case and then do up our discussion. I then woke up at 9am to have really awesome hash brown from the dining hall before going for a super dry accounting lecture (and I didn't fall asleep!) I'm just glad I'm not studying law *phew*

Friday I crashed Qian Wen's Singapore Society lecture, it was pretty interesting hahas. Much more interesting than my biz lectures for sure. We got to watch a clip out of this theatre production called "charged". It's set in a NS context and was really interesting. The acting was rather decent too, I would have gone to watch such a production. After that was just a meeting for my accounting project (noooo not another project T^T) and back to Angsana for dinner. I think I'm really bored of their food already and during dinner I was thinking about what to order for supper hahaha. We ordered KFC in the end, it was so good ^^

We watched parts of Mulan while eating and later at night we watched V for Vendetta. The movie was... wow. V reminds me of Snape hahaha! After the movie I went on a whole fangirly tirade about how sexy Snape is and now my OG mates all know my strange fetish for snape-ish characters D: And yes, awesome movie. The story played out really well and V was just amazing. He's like a madman but so human in other aspects; he's so strong and intelligent yet vulnerable too. I'm in total fangirl mode heehee ^^ Oh and some people in my Angsana house are potter fans too! It's so awesome, I think we can try having movie nights to watch the whole series soon :D

And I think I'll have to end here, I was supposed to start on work a longgggg time ago. Argh, this weekend I need to work on my MNO and ACC projects. Halloween's coming, prepare to be visited by the living dead ;D (and I don't mean sleep deprived students hahaha)

Oh and have I mentioned how fun it is talking to Siri? I love my new phone, the battery lasts infinitely longer than my old one! So happy, I named it Hans after a character from Book Thief that I really liked. Oh and even though this has been a super busy week, reading has been keeping me sane. Book Thief was really good, I'm rereading bits of the Alchemist but I think I'll start on Invisible Monsters once I go home and fetch it today :)

Old man: Why do you tend a flock of sheep?
Boy: Because I like to travel.
Old man: (points at a baker) When he was a child, that man wanted to travel, too. But he decided first to buy his bakery and put some money aside. When he's an old man, he's going to spend a month in Africa. He never realised that people are capable, at any time in their lives, of doing what they dream of.
Boy: He should have decided to become a shepherd.
Old man: Well, he thought of that. But bakers are more important people than shepherds. Bakers have homes, while shepherds sleep out in the open. Parents would rather see their children marry bakers than shepherds. In the long run, what people think about shepherds and bakers becomes more important for them than their own destinies.
Boy: Why are you telling me all this?
Old man: Because you are trying to realise your destiny. And you are at the point where you're  about to give it all up.

Friday, October 05, 2012

A leap of faith

It's been too long since I last updated this space. Basically it's been just school, school and more school. I'm going to do something entirely insane and my parents are going to be so freaking pissed. Sigh. My mum took the news fairly well in that she just freaked out so that's alright; like just a ?!! freak out and not a full-scale THEFUQ freak out.

But somehow I just feel like I'm bumbling about with this; I've been spamming emails left right center and I don't know if that's going to kill my chances in the end. And I still have my midterms and projects to work on. Sigh, school :( Business school to be exact, the bell curve is extremely frightening. Almost half the cohort scored 90% in this one test, the bell curve is going to be a major pain in the ass. (I never thought I'd be sad to score 80%) Arrrrr I really want a 4.5 CAP! If my Plan A Part II fails, I'll need it to get into the exchange programme... Considering the schools I want to go to. That's Plan B.

The scary thing now is that I need to add things to my plate if I want to boost the chances of either Plan A Part II or Plan B working. Complicated much. I probably should make plans for this December holidays, my god why am I doing this now? I wish I'd done this last year, then maybe things would have worked out differently :(

I'm gonna go microwave the food I packed from breakfast. I need to kick my body clock back into shape, I keep waking up so late unless people come wake me up sigh.