Wednesday, May 30, 2012

stop hoping and start believing


Men in Black 3 was nice to watch even though many parts in the storyline didn't make sense to me.


You're so different now, I'd go back in time too if I could stop whatever happened from happening.


That was surprisingly harder yet easier than I thought it would be; at least it's final. No more self-denial. I've already come further than I thought I would and I will never forget what could have been. I'm going to move on but moving on doesn't mean I have to let go. I'm going to frame up my Edinburgh offer; it's going to be a painful reminder me of what I let slip away. It's also a reminder that failure isn't as scary as it seems to be. I've failed at the biggest thing I've ever wanted. Been there done that; I've tried and I've fallen and I've lived another day. Failure isn't forever. It can be a day, a month, a year, many years. But it's a measurable sum of time in which everything feels hopeless. You are miserable, angry, disappointed, confused. But that time ends with a decision to pick yourself up and keep getting up no matter how many times you fall. We are all strong enough to do that; don't let despair blind you from your true strength.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


I've been around but always too lazy to blog. And my internet's finally back so I don't have to hotspot my phone's miserable 3G anymore, yay!! I don't remember what my last post was and I'm suffering from major pain-in-the-uterus cramps right now; can't believe I still have to go to work tomorrow. Anyway, I finally watched AVENGERS today (Yes it's so freaking awesome the whole title deserves to be capitalised, read it out loud with a HUARGHHH~!!! sound like the hulk lololol)

OMG I forgot to buy my ASOS yesterday, dammit the 15% promo code expired -.- Oh wells ~~ I'm going to be making a few big purchases in the next few months, i.e. a new laptop (but I still love you Silas! I'll keep you around as a reminder of all the good times we had) and new phone (most likely another iphone *facepalm*). Seems like uni will be a fresh start with lots of new things, which reminds me, I haven't posted the photos of my trunk/luggage/magicboxonwheels. (Oh and I also bought a bimbotic pink straightener hahahaha)

I can't get over how cute my stuffed toys are, the only problem is that I can't fit all of them in. How am I going to bring all of them to angsana??? Then again the room wouldn't have enough space for all of them either :/

It has locks kay! It's actually functional and not just an expensive $59 box that I felt like buying hahahaha

My old new manly wallet 
(I haven't used it before, so it's new. But I've had it around for awhile, so it's old?)

And the necessary coin pouch since man-wallets have no coin compartments; why???!!!
Anyway, it's apt that Snape's next to it cause the flip side of my double agent pouch says 我是坏人. How absolutely perfect for him ^^

There seems to be so much to do these days, but I keep getting home so late. So number 1 on my list would be emailing the UK universities to let them know I won't be going so that they can offer my place to someone else (omg four stabs to the heart) and then I'll finally get to doing up the Taiwan videos. Which reminds me, I need to send someone my itinerary. And then finally to pack my room; right now it's such a mess I may just get lost under a landslide junkslide the next time I fall asleep on the floor.

Work has been busy as well. After the long break from school my writing is so much more uninspired that I can't bring myself to accept what I've written. Didn't have a choice today though, I needed to submit a draft article for the newsletter but it was so terrible! Argh, ashamed. Oh and for those who are interested, RDA was featured in TODAY Paper on Sunday (13 May). It's on the second page and the article was surprisingly not bad even though the reporter seemed a bit unsure of what he was doing when he came down to RDA.

It's so strange how it's mid-May already, time is passing pretty fast. Uni will be very busy time with lots to learn and tons more to do. The idea of studying the same 2 subjects for 5 years is rather frightening, further more it's a subject I have no background in and ain't that enthusiastic over either. It'll work out I guess, I have enough faith in my stubbornness to struggle through all the way to get the double honours expected of us (or maybe not ._.) The idea of it scares me, but going to uni sounds so exciting I'll just stop thinking about the tough part for awhile. It's not my dream course but I never really expected to be able to do what I wanted anyway.

There's supposedly a module for personal finances or something like that; you plan out how to save for children, house, family yada yada yada. Maybe I'll be able to plan out if it's realistically feasible for me to study vet later on in life, but 500k just sounds like it'll take a very long time to earn. How many years of slaving away in a cubicle would that take me? Gosh, my plan B really is to just earn as much moolah as possible now. I need at least a 5 digit salary to achieve my goal, argh the life of a cubicle rat here I come.

Monday, May 07, 2012


I've totally fallen in love with my new trunk cum luggage, more about it tomorrow/another day because it's so insanely late now :O goodnight!

Friday, May 04, 2012


“Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying “yes” begins things. Saying “yes” is how things grow. Saying “yes” leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say “yes'.”
― Stephen Colbert

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

morning air

I finally dug out the free adult ezlink card and promptly lost it without even using it once; what a joke. I also spent the day with a paper clip on my head because I didn't have a hair clip, it was a pretty bad substitute.


this is so true, but why does pikachu look so dog like ._.