Saturday, October 29, 2011

like a rainbow

urgh my body is totally crashing, and i can't study at all in my fevered state. this is such terrible timing. i am very worried about A levels, but then again, who isn't?

Sunday, October 23, 2011

much much more please

this weekend has been pretty chill, if only graduating actually meant i could stop studying. saturday was starbucks with ying, but terribly hard to focus, was so sleepy and fell asleep during tuition too. but after that was movie with lc and beef chilli cheese fries (:D). both were awesome; watch 'midnight in paris' it was really cool and funny!

today was SOA with ying again, but before that we went cedele for some really nice bread and then SOA to study but again, unproductive. i spent too much time craving all the food and ice cream. mmm mango alfonso and passionfruit sorbets, garlic prawn pasta, lemon meringue pie gelato with super rich brownie (i shall bake some soon hopefully), mushroom soup with garlic toast; basically soa food is amazing, everything is super nice and i need to update my food album ;D and i spent too much time at soa watching random vids on the ipad lol and then this (super duper cute) kid came over to watch the lion king videos. ying went nuts over him lolol. i was just worried for my data booklet and MF15 but the only casualties were my 4th ionisation energy of Fe and 2sinAcosB formula but they're still readable under the orange doodles and correction fluid. and good thing mildliners dont die after being dipped in eyedrops @@

and i baked cupcakes! super sweet icing but the still-warm ones (without icing)  i tried were not bad :O (even though i fudged my way about a bit) teehee, ive been baking every weekend it feels really nice :)

i think i won't be going for all the mocks tomorrow, havent studied :S

Monday, October 17, 2011

to no end

i seem to go through this cycle every time i try and remember something i've studied before for prelims/blocks D:

Sunday, October 16, 2011

sheep like that


and lol epic slack weekend,  i'm not sure how time managed to pass so quickly :O
to the reading room i must go tomorrow!

Saturday, October 15, 2011


you weren't the one who held her to sleep at nights; you weren't the one who cried into her fur when no one else would have understood; you weren't the one who tried to stay awake studying the most boring topics with her next to you; you weren't the one who fell asleep with her when that didn't work out; you weren't the one who put out her breakfast in the mornings before going to school; you weren't the one who brought her into the house when we got home at nights (no you headed straight for the tv); you weren't the one who hoped she'd come in through your room window when you couldn't find her outside the gate that day; you weren't the one who felt contented just petting her and hearing her loud-as-a-train purr;

you weren't the one who tried to love her; you couldn't; i did.

she scratched you and she bit you and you called her a terrible cat. she scratched me, she bit me, i just held on tighter or tried again. do you know how happy i was the first time she fell asleep in my lap? i'd finally gotten through to her. you have no idea how hard i tried to build that amazing bond with her so please, who are you to judge?

you fed her medicine once, and you think you cared for her more than i did? ha. she never meant anything to you. i was the one who choose her at spca; i named her (yes i have an obsession with naming); i loved her; love, still; always.

and i don't need to prove that to you.

Friday, October 14, 2011

kind of

i'm back in that funk where the days all blur together into a mass of reading room and bed and somehow i seem to do very little in the many hours that just fly by. i'm really worried i won't even be halfway-prepared by the time A levels are here :S

Monday, October 10, 2011

of everything

"It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." - Albus Dumbledore

Sunday, October 09, 2011

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

in the sea of my own doubt

thanks to ying i've been listening to that on repeat, super nice song~

i need to start doing what i know i should, mustn't lose sight of what it's all for. i can't believe how a small and careless idea grew to become so utterly all-engulfing. i will do what must be done!