catching up

hello world! lots to update, i went to angbao river with my mum and dad last saturday to check out the CNY stuff going on, i think this is my first year going in really long :O

lol this was where i dropped the poor stitch that usually sits on my phone. ran all over the place trying to find it and when i did one ear was almost broken off :( oh but i glued it on properly today :D and i had a little accident with the super glue heehee i hope my mum doesnt realise ;D

milo balloons! not very cute but they were all over the place @@

the very awesome dudes at the first aid corner hahahahahahah. they gave me a plaster for my blister. the guy totally tsk-ed at me. the pain of new shoes, and they were just sneakers, not even heels :( 

bumper cars! i've found you! just no one to play with me -.-

this is random but ive decided this bag is too awesome to sell even though my fatass wallet cannot fit into any  of the many pockets *grumbles* i must use this bag more often even though it's probably the most inconveniently designed bag ever and i can't take anything out without needing four hands ]: i remember when i bought it i had to ask someone to get this bag down from the display hanger thingy for me cause i couldn't reach it even if there were two of me and i piggybacked myself (me is short zzz)

and i met marshy at marina square! once when i was trying the prosperity burger at macs (lol random cause zinc told me about their 1-for-1 thing) and once on my way home.

anyway, CNY was basically spent watching lots and lots of movies on FOX tv at my uncle's house and chiong knitting. my multi-tasking ability has just gone up many levels ^^

i finished my first knitting project just in time :D and nopes it wasn't for Bear, though i might make one for him since my knitting interest is going to hit obsessive soon and i feel the insane urge to start hoarding yarn. splurged on really expensive Katia yarn yesterday when i popped into the Ondori warehouse with Pam. they had so much yarn but everything was so $$$$$ i felt my heart sink with every shelf we went through. they do wholesale so it's like packs of 10/6 /5and i ended up emptying my wallet for 3 balls of reddish yarn, i need to find a nice pattern for that soon! *excited* 

and i found this old photo of my sis and i in her room, 10+ years later and i'm back in bangs *facepalm* why my face forever so fat!!! argh *grumbles*

oh and earlier today it was raining like nuts and a branch of my neighbour's tree collapsed into our backyard and smashed a hole in the roof/shelter thing of our backyard. my mum got me to take photos first thing after i woke up (around 12+? heehee ^^) cause she was thinking of checking if insurance would cover it. before i went out she was negotiating with the neighbour on how they'd have the massive mango tree cut down. the other time when jo came over, my parents and i climbed out my bedroom window to cut some of the longer branches / harvest mangoes hahahaha i think jo must have been amused. my mum and i were catching falling mangoes with this plastic bag between us like some neopets game hahahahaha. and i climbed onto my other neighbours roof like a ninja like a total wuss. i was freaking scared the horizontal ladder i was using to climb over would break and i'd go tumbling all the way down to the first floor T^T

oh and somewhere along the way i rearranged the clothes in my cupboard according to colour (excluding my denim jacket and work-ish clothes. it looks so pretty now ^^

and somewhere else along the way the supre items arrived! freaking fast, came all the way from australia in 5 days i think, totally unexpected. not all the stuff for me though, and zinc's skirt was super duper pretty! my first attempt sort-of-doing-my-own-spree and good thing nothing screwed up :S unlike that annoying woman who ended up making me pay #$@%*&@#!% for shipping *more grumbling* but i feel better after hearing about jo's case heehee

dinner today was really awesome, met up with the bestfriends for dinner and katong's I12. went to din tai feng for the first time ever and it's not bad ;D the beef brisket noodles really are very nice *nom* im feeling hungry again D: went to eat snow ice after and that was really awesome too. we had a super random talk but it was really good seeing all of them again, i guess the one part about school that i miss is being able to see everyone everyday.

and i think that's it for this post. if you're wondering why it's so detailed, i'm 1)bored and waiting... 2)testing out if noting down as much details as possible about my day can really improve my memory as this book supposedly says though i think my brain cells have just been deteriorating ever since school ended. 

his legacy

i think this is one of our best family photos, both my mum and dad are smiling ^^ my sis doesnt like it though cause she thinks she looks weird :(

i came to the rather shocking realisation today that cookie lives on in his adorable little puppies. it's hard to think of that round blonde chihuahua as a father but wow, he has kids ._. and when i look at the puppies i can see the bits and pieces that were all cookie's. especially the adorable little "socks" angel and amber have. it's... amazing to think vicky + cookie -> 5 puppies. i really wonder how vicky can be so nonplussed about the life she and cookie created together. i'm glad cookie left us such wonderful puppies to help fill the giant hole left behind in his absence.

and i now sort of understand why people have children. or at least one of the reasons. and i was telling my sis that the next generation's reunion dinners are going to be so much smaller. my parents, my sis and i, our possible husbands, and our possible kids. it's so much smaller than what i'm used to, it scares me to think how different it'll be. right now our steamboats happen around two super large round tables. our future one will barely fill up one. it just wont seem as festive anymore :/ we'll have to fill in the empty spaces with lots of cats and dogs ! or maybe my sis will have lots of babies hahahahahahaha

off the top of my head

happy CNY guys!

and yes i was bored :D

the tipping point

i'm getting more and more scared of the day A level results are released; i have so much hanging on what alphabets are printed in that column. it'll probably decide what i will do for the rest of my life. so yes, no stress. everything has been pretty smooth sailing so far and if everything just goes to hell on that day... i guess i'll just join the ranks of the disappointed and depressed. i never thought i would have stood such a chance, this is so absolutely frightening.

and somehow i'm no longer as afraid from that tv show i was watching just now, though i'm still rather scared of taxis.

anyway, it's been awhile since i last posted. i haven't exactly been busy, just lazy heh heh. basically this week in a really short list:

monday - interviewed prof j. b. and then went chinatown and came home to annoy the dogs heehee
tuesday - went back to HC and sat in a really confusing physics class, understood about 10% (which is really quite an achievement for me), interviewed prof c. c-t. (lol i finally saw what the HC boarding school looks like), early 团圆饭 ie 3 hour hotpot buffet with D, A, QW and YP (so fullll~~)
wed - slothed at home
thurs - slothed at home + went to bedok specially to satisfy a koi craving but they had no green tea macchiato T.T
fri - smu "interview" ( sigh guy who was... overly friendly @@ ) and 团圆饭 with loved ones :)
sat - made some progress on the wall decals with lc, went to old airport road for lunch, popped by ying's house to check out her london loot (lololol), picked up stuff and read the longest blog post ever.

and since i've decided that i like having pictures on my blog...

1. 2. 3. 4. doggy stalking from monday, i apologise for angel's really really enlarged face hahaha. vicky's i-am-a-firebreathing-dragon face is so cute ^^

5. 6. the awesome dinner on tuesday involving lots of beef, balls, and ice cream (argh my bald spot is back!)

7. amazingly, nice iphone 3GS covers still exist; ying got me this from london ^^

and that's it for this week, maybe there'll be photos of my wall once we finish sticking the decals :D and i'm thinking of taking down the MJ posters so that i have space to stick actual photos and instaxes, but that just feels so wrong :O

nervous

it's not what you get; 

it's what you give.

stand

this was going to be a happy post about all the things i did yesterday and today, but now i'm just feeling too angsty.

and there were bunnies

today was a spring cleaning day ! yes, i actually did some cleaning, since technically running a super strong vacuum cleaner over everything does make everything look less dirty. it's weird though, looking at all the bits and pieces i've accumulated over the years. it feels too... cold to throw them all away, but they're honestly too useless to keep. i'm just going to continue hoarding :)

and my dream catcher finally broke, but i've had it since P6 so no surprise there. and i realised that a lot of my blog posts are going to be wrongly dated, since i post before i sleep and i usually sleep past midnight :/ it feels weird not having school and being able to wake up at noon/1pm/3pm. but then again it's nice to be woken up by a bored dog once in awhile n.n

the previous day... tuesday? i went shopping with zinc and jen and i went on a very thorough hunt for a nice huggable cream knit cardigan. i saw one i rather liked but because $$ is an issue, i put it down only to regret it a lot. i ended up dragging lc back to ion after dinner on the lucky chance that it was still there and it was, yay! n.n lol shallow moment hahas.

oh i sorted through my shoe cabinet today and decided that it's time to put my foot down (pun intended) and stop buying so many shoes. or at least only buy those that i'm sure i really really cannot live without :S but i'm going to make it a point to wear my heels out more often since there's no school now (i still can't get over that; it feels as if it's still december holidays!) and i'm unemployed lol.

oh and if you're wondering why i suddenly post so many random photos, it's cause i've been bored and recently came to temporarily possess an unneeded camera (ie my sister's, who conveniently actually has school and impending O levels heh heh). so yeps, i'm happily documenting my days of bumming around.

do expect more photos of the dogs though, and maybe prince too if i can catch him, because i've been feeling the urge to stalk my dogs n.n goodnight!

a brave new year

it's 2012, wow. ok so it's been 2012 for awhile already. my last few hours of 2011 were pretty miserable, sitting alone in my uncle's front yard hoping to hang on to my fickle 3G signal. but i guess it was a rather apt ending for a very trying year. we hit 0000 in the car on the way back, and it was all together quite depressing.

i was feeling very... disappointed and somewhere inside i felt like shedding some of last year's baggage. so on an impulse i asked my sis to help me cut bangs and so by the first hour of the new year my fringe resembled a mushroom cap. think sec 1 bangs and yeps, it still doesnt look any better but luckily the regretting part hasn't set in yet. in fact, i feel pretty good. 2012 will be a year of doing things i've always thought of doing but never did. it will be a doing year !

(btw the really awesome plate of salmon and eggs was my brunch when i went to black coffee with yingzincjen on 31st, it was really really really beyond amazing. dinner was potluck at uncle's and i binged on countless bbq-ed black pepper chicken wings after all the regular potluck-y foods couldn't satisfy my carnivorous needs hahas)

so today we tried to make love letters in the very messy diy style. it was a bad idea hahas. i spent most of the time eating whatever came out of the metal tongs, which was mostly undercooked/overcooked batter. in the end my auntie took the leftover batter to make "pancakes". they actually tasted alright, and were quite good with prata curry nomnom. we had only one semi successful love letter, but i dropped it on the floor (oops) when i accidentally touched one of the metal tongs straight off the charcoal pit. and yeah, reflex actions and all, i let go of everything and squawked.

in the end i bbq-ed dinner (this is probably the first dinner where everything that was homecooked was prepared by me heh heh heh) and i have no idea why my charcoal looks purple in the picture. rest assured i did not use sinister-looking purple charcoal hahas.

and i've been browsing job vacancies using those funky online job databases and all the admin jobs are a really big turnoff. i mean they're probably more useful for my future, since i get some insider experience in corporate/business-y jobs but... really. i'm 18, i want to do something fun and dynamic and exciting and spontaneous. i guess there are probably some healthcare jobs, but i'm not going to take up medicine and i don't think i'll be studying life science in uni so... it sounds more interesting but i don't know if it's the right choice to apply for. i saw a rather interesting business-y vacancy, but this one sounds a little more scary than what i'm ready for. i just want to be able to work from home at my own pace and my own time with cup noodles to snack on at 3am in the morning :( or instant lasagna hahas, it's actually not bad (even though it resembles a block of frozen yellow and red playdoh)

this week i'll be going to the airport on 3 consecutive days to send ppl off so i foresee my subsequent days being pretty uneventful. which means some hermit time to read fanfic and blogskin but... i need to do something! going back to those days where i isolated myself from reality is... not good.

and i've forgotten what i wanted to say after my com overheated and died on me so okay, i'm just going to post this now. btw, if you haven't seen this and you're a harry potter junky, please do so immediately. like nowwwwww~

it makes me sniffle. i grew up reading harry potter and fanfiction. it's shaped the way i see the world entirely. i've learnt... a lot from it. strange right? i still remember once i was reading book 2 at the nanyang bus stop, and someone walked by muttering, "secondary school already, still reading harry potter tsk." i've graduated from jc, and i'm still reading HP fanfiction hahas. some things will never change. maybe i'll even write fanfic this year :O

the good guy/girl always wins

yeps i'm still awake, largely cause i've started reading fanfiction and partly because i've only been awake for 8.5 hours; i woke up at 5pm see ^^ anyway the fact that 2011 is ending is really scaring me, but it's a bit too late to try and meet all my new year resolutions. as usual i'm hoping 2012 might involve a more proactive me, but since  2011 isn't over yet it feels a bit premature to start thinking of next year.

“One day at a time – this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.” -Ida Scott Taylor


2011 was a year that changed my life in ways that i still don't know and possibly will never know. there were many terribly miserable days, but even the tough times are worth remembering.

the next chapter of my fanfic beckons so i'll muse over the 8765 hours of 2011 another day.

and those are rather messily made oreo truffles, but hey they were omnomnomgood. who knew oreos could be blended :O

grey

it didnt feel like christmas at all. i mean, i knew it was around that time of the year, what with all the cheery snowmen and santas set up along the streets, but everytime i realised that it was the 25th i still felt a little surprised. in the end, the 25th of december was just the day i came back from vietnam and held no other special significance. there was a very blatant lack of christmas cheer.

a couple of days ago i was telling dawn that life's just starting to get good. right now i'm not sure what to do with it. i have nothing to do until my ingredients come home with my mum and i can bake a little. reading just cant fill the emptiness anymore and i want to do something but i don't know what. i'm tempted to read fanfiction again just to feel something other than extreme boredom.

oh and vietnam was... just a trip we took because my sister wanted to fly in an airplane again, during which she promptly felt miserable and nauseous.

strange days