Holy fishy

Okay so I'm avoiding homework again. And this is so cool I'm posting
from my phone :D (yeah I'm bored see. And it's not that I don't have
anything to do. I have too much to do but my work is just plain boring
which thus causes me to so stupid things to avoid dying of boredom.
And yeah, random :D)

Anyway, I'm totally in love with a fanfiction right now. It's bloody
amazing and snape's super powerful and the characters are brilliant
and the plot is filled with such gasp-worthy twists that I want to
print the whole damn thing out and sleep with it under my pillow.

And I really hate PW. Freaking tedious. And not being able to talk has
made me remember/realize some things. Silver lining there I guess,
which I need especially since I couldn't eat snow ice today :(

if life were an adventure novel i'd like to be the ninja pirate

stj today (actually yesterday considering the time) :D food was super awesome - baked rice (L), spaghetti, chicken in gravy (L), chicken wings/drumlets, mini pizzas, potato salad (L), chocolate mousse (L). amazing. not sure how seniors managed to afford it but omg it was good and totally worth the eternal mental scarring of seeing the guys play twister.

i'm hungry again 0.0 damn. it seems like all i look forward to in life is food. good thing it's a necessity or i might guilt trip myself into thinking that having double servings are a sin. and i eat more than a guy, which is quite awesome especially after frisbee on friday. it is no fun having to discover the full extent of female physical inferiority when you're dying on extra muddy grass.

time's awasting

FUCK WHY IS IT 3AM AGAIN?

this constantly eating thing can't be good for me

that more or less sums it up for me.
on an irrelevant note...
I'M HUNGRY.
I HATE TESTS.
WHY CAN'T THEY BE UNGRADED.
BIO D; D; D; D;
sigh.
shall return to chionging D;
this is a bad habit i need to rid myself of soon.

our favourite red wall

went to the airport to supposedly do homework but didn't do much
pigged out on bubbletea and chips
revisited the red wall and took silly/lousy iphone shots
refer to ying's march hols photo album (coming soon) for more?

i'd give you my heart on a string

i can't believe the hols have passed so quickly; after tomorrow it'll be half gone. so quick summary time i guess. saturday went to grandma's house and i'm not sure what to think about my grandma saying i wasn't wearing anything particularly interesting. hey silver boots kay! then again i wear them too much already :/ oh and there was a quick 1 hour shopping trip before that; finally got my MJ tank at 30 from riverisland yay (L).

sunday went to sentosa to celebrate cousin's 21st. quite awesome; ate too many barbecued chicken wings to remember, drowned calorie woes in curry alongside extended family, popped into random conversations, snapped horrid shots with sis's SLR, puzzled over loud music coming from the beach party, took refuge in cute little kampong-style huts with aircon.

monday had to go to school for chem lab makeup session. titrated things, suddenly realised that methyl orange turns orange at endpoint (-.-), titrated again, finito. went to ikea with ying after that, randomed around the place admiring pots and beds, ate to our tummys' collective content, got our cleats for frisbee at queensway(omg i own soccer boots they look so weird next to my other shoes), home, went to eat more food, home. i spent 15bucks on food alone D;

and today... lazy-ed out of 2hours of traveling and stayed home instead of going for ct outing. attempted to do homework but then freaked out and went to browse gmarket/taobao/f21/asos/uo instead. now i have lots of orders to make :S (this is what happens when i have so much homework that i don't want to do)

and that's about it. i think my bank account is gonna fall by about 200-300 bucks D;
and don't tell me he has a crush if you can't tell me who; now i really have to move on D; D; D;

i think this is why facebook proclaimed me a not-very-happy person :/
i know who's missing and i guess i'll just have to live with that.

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

if your presence didn't make any difference, your absence won't either

I'm not afraid to fall, it means I climbed up high.
To fall is not to fail, you fail when you don't try.
I'm not afraid to fall, I might just learn to fly...
and I will spread these wings of mine

SSEF TWENTYTEN

9 hours of complete boredom, nervousness and confusion;
repeating baculovirus way more times than healthy;
1" court shoes that hurt more than my 4" potion darlings;
homework obviously undone.

for the love of chocolate and endorphins

sigh. missing school is going to be utterly horrible.
not that i want to go to school, but rather i will never catch up after missing two days.
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gonna be traveling around like mad tomorrow;
no rest for the wicked, they say
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i realise i spelt traveling wrongly in my entire gp essay;
but the question spelt it wrongly too ;D
and gonna fail anyway so no difference
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wow a S grade;
math is gonna be a nightmare this year. and the next.

by karmic law i should be a marshmallow

i just got hooked onto a whole new sshg saga;

shouldn't have started a new fanfic, homework is doomed.
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"'Some people are like Slinkys - not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs." - Severus Snape (L)

we are all very brilliant sheep

i stared at the 2:22AM on my com for a very long time; or at least until it turned to 2:23. either way, it seems i've just broken another benchmark for staying up to indecent hours to sort of rush out homework.

i always end up spending money when i stay up late. and yes it's possible to buy things at 2:22AM. ah the wonders of the internet.

and joey has alerted me to the possibility that my poor econs understanding may be the reason why i have such horrid money management. or it could also be the reason why i have yet to finish my econs hbl. bah, econs and i will not be good friends.

and i should stop eating so much sweets in the middle of the night. it's bad for my teeth and adipose tissues. if someone were to grow electricity generating organs in me and used my fats as an energy source, i could probably power a city for two minutes too.

or maybe not.

i want to eat the warheads D; (must resist; for angel! oh haven't written letter too gah)

for the record, i love love! i'm still high from the fanfic i read today; hermione and severus are just so amazing together. reading made me very happy then very sad then very happy again. sounds like a mood swing, but without the pms and crazy hormones.

and i probably collected very bad karma today. sigh.

oh and oreos + snow ice = love :D

slow down tell me why you're running

i realise that i cry easily.
i cry when i'm happy, when i'm sad, when i'm angry, when i'm upset, when i'm confused, and when i start i just can't stop. i'm like a bottomless bucket of tears.
it's kind of embarrassing.

but today i cried because i realised that love really does exist; not just in movies, but for real, and to regular people just like you and me.

Last year, my boyfriend lost his battle with cancer.

It's been very hard since. But this year on Valentine's Day, I received a package in the mail with a beautiful necklace and a note that said - "I wasn't ready to say goodbye just yet."

Even though his life has ended, his love has not. His LGMH.
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A while ago I saw a middle-aged couple walking together holding hands and smiling.

They looked so completely in love and proud of it that I still remember it clearly to this day. They were walking in the city with a few dozen people near them and a street full of cars.

They were both men.

I have never believed in true love as much as I did then.
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Today I had to take off my wig and explain to the guy I am seeing that I can not go with him on a date next Friday since I have chemotherapy, thereby revealing that I have cancer.

We still have a date. At the hospital.

This man GMH.

it's amazing. it makes me feel so small in the grand scheme of things. it's a wonderful feeling. i'm just one life in billions. i can screw it up but the world is still beautiful somewhere else.

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