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lol im a little too off balanced to blog now but

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must start on econs

RARHHHH

*GORILLA ROARS*

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

KAI

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(i dunno how to increase font size ><)

swimming in a fish bowl

give up, or keep trying?

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and this is rather late but

THANK YOU DAWN AND QIANWEN

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME (L)

;D

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and i can't stop staring at my henna;

i want more;

i think i'm one of those people who have an irrational obsession with body art

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it's been some time since my thoughts were so dark

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where are you?

ASDFGHJKL;

holybananacrepe, it's the last week of holidays. NO NO NO NO AHHH I AM IN COMPLETE DENIAL *plunges head in very deep hole*

on a side note, yummmm eachacup oreo crush w mini pearls n.n

once, twice or thrice

wao, today was eventful; and since i figured i'd have to email zinc photos of tuition hw, i finally connected my phone and there will actually be photos this post! :O (but i'm still too lazy to update my phone's ipod playlist ._.)

i overslept >5 phone alarms, 2 wakeup calls and 2 semi-conscious conversations with my auntie and rushed out of the house thinking i'd be late. didn't mail PROJECT-ODD parcels (oops) and ended up a little late but very early (compared to the rest, ahem) and wandered around NEX with yp and dom until people arrived and eventually we had lunch at mad jack and the timing was super good we sat carol down and then sang the happybdaysong with the cake nicely lit up and ready. omnomnom-ed and spammed coloured instax omg so pretty n.n

and lookie, a photo of a photo of a photo! hahas dawn's "ahh so awkward~!"

then hopped down to somerset and met 鸡蛋 and then spent some time being shutter happy and other stuff :D

dinner was super dupa early with the best friends ying zinc joey jen at tcc with ice cream as dessert from cold stone (oreo overload is amazinggg~~) and ying and zinc harmonized a bday song for me (:O) hahas thanks guys for the great night and oreo cake! (L) so glad to finally see zinc and joey, last saw them before they all flew off and came back with lovely souvenirs/presents teehee. it was nice even though jen called me a lousy blow-er :( it was a very defiant candle meh, and even with all the rainbow runs we've been doing during training i think 18 candles are still too much for me; it's a sign i'm not ready to be an adult :S

oh yes omg joey the pikachu is damn cute and makes super cute sounds (pi. pi. pi. ka. chu. pi-ka-chu! omgggggg *pokes repeatedly in awe*) ahhh it's so cute i need to record it so that i can make it my sms alert tone, the stupid iphone one is annoying cause 99.9% of the people on the mrt use it and when it beeps i have no idea if it's my phone or not -.-

and i must go test out the pacman mug zinc and ying got me, i can make the hot chocolate thingy they gave us for bike hike n.n (i guess it should work even though it's not coffee/tea since ying tried it out with hot water and it worked).

wheee okay i'm in a nice happy state now *zens* (oo hopefully joey can get that berkeley disc :O)

and oh, zinc found her tuition hw :/ now for me to conveniently forget about mine n.n

and omg my right wrist feels sore, how to trainnnnnn T.T

even if the world ends

today was a couch potato day; lazed about in front of the tv from about 2.30pm to 10pm with the exception of showering time and the long arduous journey up the stairs to my room. aching too much and impossibly tired from the consecutive friendlies. urgh just thinking of the RJ team A game makes me want to shrivel up and die, just spent the whole time getting burned T.T wasn't much better today for the NP game, omg my fumbles and screwups @@ i had a complete mental block today, couldnt handle at all under pressure/in a zone ahhh i'm disappointed with myself ]<

rarh, i think i shall continue bumming about on the floor since i can't get internet from my table and 老牛吃嫩草 was quite good for a singaporean(?) production and appleseed is just weirdddddd even though the closet romantic in me kept going awwww and *sniff sniff* at all the sweet parts. omg some scenes in 老牛吃嫩草 reminded me of times that were less stressful and much more carefree. i miss being j1 :(

i officially only have 2 weeks left of being 17 D:

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oh oh oh and omg i can't stop staring at my instax in amazement @@ teehee, i guess a mini50s/pianoblack makes quite a good 18th birthday present to myself, rarh can't wait to start using it fulltime and then i can really get to plastering my wall with random shots and have them rain down on me on super windy nights. ooo and i've got big plans for my wall, hopefully the wall decals i ordered will arrive soon in a nice little tube and my wall wont look so empty and the random things i scrawl on it will stop freaking out my auntie/mum. wheeeee~ so much empty canvas to work with n.n man, now i really wish i had signed up for that graffiti workshop with jo :( blank empty walls... oh wells at least they're not yellow. and this is so random and my tail bone hurts from sitting on the floor. aches~

rxstpxct

"So yes. It had flaws, but what does that matter when it comes to matters of the heart? We love what we love. Reason does not enter into it. In many ways, unwise love is the truest love. Anyone can love a thing because. That’s as easy as putting a penny in your pocket. But to love something despite. To know the flaws and love them too. That is rare and pure and perfect."

-The Wise Man's Fear by Patrick Rothfuss

today was: o.o + T.T + >< + :S + :) + :D + :/ + D< + :( + :| + :O + :) + T.T + ._. + x_x in more or less that order. let's just say it's been a day.

GUNK + FUNK

erps my attempt to make something edible failed completely today and now i feel like i've ingested too much egg and flour and arhhh i need to start studying omg like almost half the holiday is over and blah i just lied through my teeth when my mum asked if i was studying now AHHHH THIS IS BAD I'M SO GOING TO FAIL BT2 BUT HOWWWWWW. my brain has gone into permanent hibernation or maybe i just lost enough braincells to the point where studying is just beyond me already; though i seriously do feel more stupid these days, SIGH.

and i was talking to dawn and holysheep i'm so domesticated these days @@ the idea of pursuing vetmed is suddenly... not as important as it ever was. i mean if you ask me about it, the whole spark and sincerity is still there but sometimes you can really feel for something but that doesn't mean much else. and omg the point is i was telling dawn that i'm most likely going to just stay in singapore and do a very ordinary degree or whatever happens to be there or something like that. i have no ambition :/

oh wells, I AM OFF TO SHOWER AND PACK PARCELS AND MAYBE STUDY A TEENY WEENY BIT IF I DONT FALL ASLEEP.

KAI MUST SLACK NO MORE RARH.

ok this is a super random post i haven't done one like this in awhile teehee.

and gosh holidays have really just been spent training and travelling around singapore; i want to travel out of it!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna get lost somewhere :( and i need to put batteries in my super old school alarm clock so it can glare at me while i piteously try to study T.T

why is this post so random? i must have eaten too much icing sugar *facepalm*

3/6 = infinity

CHANCE.

"“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other... Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."

- Dave Matthews Band

CHANGE.

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wow, 1/4 of the holidays are over. i'm scared at how time flies and no matter how desperately i try to grab on to every precious second it just slips right through.

maybe ambitions are a waste of time; if you only set your sights on the long term goal you forget to treasure each and every day that will never happen again. it's just another case of whether the ends justify the means. i can't imagine studying for another 6 years after JC. do i want it enough? what do i want more? the idea of going from student to full independent adult is absolutely frightening, but i'm sick of studying already. gosh, and i'm not even 18 yet.

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"Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, 'Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all that I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?'"

He turned his head to his shoulder as if the bird were there now.

"Is today the day I die?" he said.

-Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

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you know, sometimes we ask each other what we'd do if the world ends in 2012. and the answers are never what we're doing now. why do we continue doing these things then?

because we live in a society, don't we? this is civilization, we rely on others for things we need and if we want something from them we'll have to give something in return. we can't break out and do whatever we really want to because simply put, there's no free meal in the world. in the end, it's still all about the price tags.

i'm not making much sense :/

i guess what i'm saying is that i hate that we can't live from day to day, we have to plan for the future but yet you never really know if you'll have a future to plan for. i always get scolded for being such a 先甜后苦 kind of person because if i can do what i want now then i'll do it. why suffer today and every day after that with the promise that one day you'll stop torturing yourself? i want to live my life, but it takes more than just courage to throw yourself headfirst into the unknown.