memories

i'm feeling rather confused over what i'm feeling right now. (excluding the fact that ITSFREAKINGHOT, that i'm sure) anyway, i was viewing old posts just now, and i realised so much as changed...

but thats not the reason for the post title. or at least, not the only reason. i'm trying to find a youtube video that someone made for his fanfiction (trailer perhaps?). i remember it being really nice and tear-jerking but i just... can't remember what it's called. it's a severus/harry fic i think (what else could it be lol) and the song used was memories by within temptation. and now everytime i hear that song i just remember the feeling the video gave me (don't ever doubt the power of words, visuals and music alone or combined).

sigh. and... i guess there is another reason.


i miss having to pick your fur from my clothes. i miss having to sleep in awkward positions so as not to wake you. i miss having to carry you in when you get stuck outside the window. i miss being woken up at 4 in the morning to let you out. i miss seeing you scare me by suddenly jumping in through the window. i miss having to chase you around the house. i miss seeing you all wet when you have your bath. i miss the occasional scratches you gave me. i miss having you to hold. i miss the feel of you in my arms.

you have no idea how much i miss you.

The memories ease the pain inside,
now I know why.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Made me promise I'd try
to find my way back in this life.
I hope there is a way
to give me a sign you're ok.
Reminds me again it's worth it all
so I can go on.

ah i see!

it's another one of those days where i'm wishing for something i clearly can't have unless i do something expensive/dangerous/insane. and today, it's perfect eyesight.

one heart attack ago, i was happily returning to my room after the shower when i stepped on something extremely squishy on the floor and totally freaked out. then i looked on the floor and couldn't see anything. then i bent to looked closer and saw this... translucent thing. at first i thought it was some new yeast-insect-something hybrid and promptly fell on my ass in utter horror.

then i put on my glasses and realised it was a piece of plastic wrapping -.-

depressing much.

finally, my first flame

or not.

i suddenly recall that some other person might have came along and spammed my tagboard just like you marison. but either way, flamers make me really happy for some currently unknown reason.

so dear flamer, thanks for your honest though irrational comments and you can just pretend this post is dedicated to you if it makes you feel better. and as to you being someone i know, i highly doubt it. judging by the level of intelligence of the people i do know and your astoundingly limited vocabulary, it just isn't possible. so do the world a favour and just get out of the gene pool.

Zachary David Alexander "Zac" Efron

LOL that's chrissy's work. (and i think i like this one better than the one of snape in a frilly wedding cake dress o.O) and... lol jo.

Joey. says:
pink and purple!
ahaha.
damn hot
as in
the room
not him.

anyway, went to watch 17again with jen and ying today. considering how i've not done my work despite the time, maybe i should have followed zinc's example and gone home instead. but regardless... zac efron is quite hot :D (though he does have one mouthful of a name). butwhattheheck... yeah. then again, his features aren't that great, except he has interestingly shiny eyes (i wonder how that works). but he looks quite good in the movie (teehee) and the movie... is not bad. i don't really like the ending but it's quite funny. the main character's best friend is some really rich dorky kind of character and... according to jen, i laughed everytime he appeared (and apparently i was also the only one who laughed -.-)

and since i'm still avoiding work, here's some random pictures. (eeps its freaky when my curtain suddenly starts billowing like mad)

the choir girls looking really pretty in their long dresses (and omg the second song was so cool)

robotics session on tuesday... murphy still isn't straight ;D

sigh pretty giant brownie for class birthday... i'm hungry D:

and that's it. i shall go do 《弟子规》 now :(

Can't help it if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
Sometimes I can't even speak
Would someone be and not pretend
I'm off again in my world

not for the easily disturbed

hahas ok read the warning above. the pictures just get more and more disturbing but blame my twisted sense of humor. they really are funny if you don't mind visiting to the gutter for awhile :D

















what? i warned you. teehee :D

i hate being short

being around tall people is depressing. being shorter than tall people is depressing. being short is depressing. life is depressing.

...

i'm depressed.

ooo pointy

my teddy has got some sexy underwear eh? :D (thank queenie for the awesome supply of stickers. she bought this pack of 10 from popular and i was just too tempted to stick this. and i wonder if the little surprise we left is still there. considering what jo told me, chances are some guy in marsha's LDP group must have introduced his ass to our porcs)

anyway, can't rmbr much about friday but went bday present shopping with joey and amy today. there were lots of retarded things and it took us hours to decide on what to buy. but i don't really regret it cause we saw some really cool things.

this was some random lamp in a shop at raffles city and it was so cool. i wanted to get that for queenie but joey being the voice of reason, reminded me about these all-powerful beings known as parents. pity that. (oh but the shop had some really nice bracelets and i think i will get one once i've saved up enough :/)

(screw crediting; these are from google :D)

anw after a lot of random stuff we ended up at plaza sing to meet amy and i want spikey-ish earstuds! we were at 77th street and there were a few really cool pairs but omg soexpensivewhy! they actually had those dangly spiked balls at 7dollars but... there are so many things i want to buy i can't decide what to spend my money on :(



k we went to a lot of places today (library - raffles city - plaza sing - cathay - bugis) and that was between plaza sing and cathay. they were having some kindness week event and the mascot was so cuteeeeeeee. and joey was like omg that guy's popping and convinced me to go take a picture (and video too!) of the mascot. in the end we got persuaded into sort of giving them our emails (to sign up for a newsletter? i dunno) and got to take 3 shots with the orange bear/cat/what? so we each got a pseudo-polaroid to keep and some book on... kindess o.O

bloody hell that's torture

i just finished reading this book jen lent me (boot camp by todd strasser) and the story pissed me off so badly... i have no idea where to start. but since the langarts/ih essay writing techniques have been as thoroughly drilled into me as the importance of brushing both the front and back of my teeth, i shall do this in a somewhat systematic manner.

for starters, BLOODY&*%$*%@)!!&%!@SHIT. people who start boot camps are utterly inhumane opportunists. they take advantage of parents who somehow aren't sastified with the way their kids turned out. so if they cant raise them properly, then why not pay someone else to do it? they don't even have to get their hands dirty! mygoodness, if some camp requires you to sign contracts giving them the right to dual out physical punishments then if you had any brains at all you can propably figure out what's going to happen. BUT THEY STILL DO IT ANYWAY. urgh!

yet people have all that debate about abortions and all that crap about the sanctity of life and here you have parents who willingly give permission for their children to be tortured and be beaten up and put through immensely cruel regimes. all this because their kids aren't what they wanted. so blahblahblah they send their kids off to the camp and they don't have to worry about their conscience since they're not the ones humiliating their kids and stripping them of any self-respect they might have had. all this because they want their kids to be of a certain mould and effingcraplikethat. if life worked that way we'd be buying zygotes from the departmental store. oh, what colour would you like it in, ma'am?

and i'm not done ranting yet. cause sure the people who set up the camps are the most money-hungry, greedy, low-life-ass-kissing-butt-licking bastards ever but the parents... whatthehelliswrongwiththem! children are not their property and whattheheck definitely not their second chance at life or anything like that. so what if you screwed up your life? who cares. that doesn't give you the right to dictate the life of your child. bloody give them the right to be who they want to be and if they want to screw up their lives too, then too bad for them as well. don't do that "ive been there and i know everything already so shut up and listen to me because you're opinion doesn't matter" shit. urgh. and now i'm really just ranting because i've forgotten all the points i wanted to make. and so... screw it. this is so pissifying.

What's the difference between spending your life trying to be invisible,
or pretending to be the person you think everyone wants you to be?
Either way, you're faking.

awesome not?

so after going on an ant killing spree, i decided to browse foto decadent for some skinning inspiration. (weird timing, but better that than cleaning up the tiny carcasses all over my table). anyway, after looking at pictures with varying degrees of artistic expression, i came across a set i saw the last time i was on the site and just like the previous time, i completely fell in love with it. whatever era those clothes are mimicking (and i have no idea which since my knowledge of history is nonexistant), it must have been really fun to dress up. and of course, the last shot had to remind me of severus ;D god, he's hot.

The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you
It's when you don’t understand yourself.

spastic much?

HAHAHAHA. ok even though i have shitloads of work to do.... OMGTHISISSOEFFINGFUNNY.

hahas. ok yes, THEY ARE SO FUNNY. you should watch the rest of their vids. *continues to lmao*

live it up without lighting it up

ok... i made a retarded design for some comp thingy... BUT VOTE FOR ME PLEASE LOL.

oh and the image on the site is like MICROTINY so here's a bigger version :D

(and no, that's not a frying pan D':)

omg i am sunburnt

found that somewhere, and if i'm not wrong, that's big splash at east coast. and from my own attempt at scaring myself half to death on the slide, i can honestly tell you that takes a hell lot of balls to do.

anyway, swimming was fun today :D we played around in the pool and jen try to teach me the butterfly stroke but... that didn't work out. we (mostly me actually) ended up just randomly wiggling around the pool. "i feel like a worm!" and gah relay D: me + addie + jen VS zinc + chrissy + bea in that order and.... we lost :( but playing monkey was fun. it's really funny when addie blocks jen cause addie is like :O tall and jen is... not as blessed in that area ;D

and the current promotion for pizzahut is actually quite worth it. we ordered two regular pizzas + 6 piece drumlets and it was... 28.20? except i think the guy gave us the wrong flavour but itsh ok. after eating, we completely ignored the dont-swim-after-eating rule and did more wiggling (me and jen that is, the rest were all too civilised to do such retarded things :/ )

oh and zinc is really efficient; her pictures are on fb already :O i'm hoping chrissy will upload cause i wanna see how our retarded cannon ball shots turned out. yay for diving into the pool with jen (L)

and i need to study! but it feels like some time in the afternoon now cause i just slept for 5 hours and i feel like sleeping again. ok actually that doesn't explain anything. point is i want to sleeeeep!

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

*sings retarded songs so that they can get stuck in jo's head* :D

dance in your birthday suit

You know what Simon Says
He tells you what to do
What if he told you to
take off all your clothes
and dance in your birthday suit

Sure it’s the latest craze
We all get influenced
the little secret they don’t
want you to know no no

it's been a long time since i've listened to her songs, but omg her shorts are so cool ;D yeahhhh, ass. (i sound like a dirty old man :O) and LOL@thefluffystripedskirt. but regardless, I LOVE THE SONGGGGGG (and her first outfit; and somehow she doesn't look like some avril ripoff \m/)

eeeee the style of this vid is so different from the other one but somehow i like it a lot. and the brain scene is cool :D

and this post is not random k! cause zinc and jen were telling me about this person who got up at 4am and started running around in the nude. apparently he's from some uni or another somewhere in sg and he got expelled. (sad life) and then i was reading the newspaper over someone's shoulder today on the mrt and apparently some other guy went into cheers and flashed (or something like that). and there was a picture of the guy doing the whole, whip-open-trench-coat-with-floursh thing. heehee, its kind of funny in a weird sense though i wonder what's up with the sudden increase in indecent exposure :/

We’re only human
Separated by our thoughts
So hang on to them
or you’ll find you might get caught
Caught up in the

Hey Monkey See and Monkey Do
Must they get brainwashed
by what’s surrounding you
Didn’t you know that
Every little thing’s contagious
Oh yes every little thing’s contagious