Thursday, July 09, 2009

Mentsch tracht, Gott lacht.

sigh. so much homework and none of it getting done. somehow it never occurred to me that i had to make something of myself. when i was younger i used to dream of just getting a regular 9-5 job, something with no personal commitment, and then spend my after-office hours enjoying life etc. it's really quite sad, since apparently i don't have any dream nor ambition. somehow it seems (or at least in drama serials) that the poor have big dreams and deserve to get them but cant while the rich have the means but don't know what to do with themselves.

then again, who says your dream has to be your job. why can't i just want to have a happy relaxed life. i'd always thought of a job as just a means of providing you with the funds you need to support yourself. that's all. i don't have to gain infinite amounts of happiness doing it, though it would be a great bonus if i did. and since i'm apparently not cut out to do something i thought i might enjoy, then what on earth am i going to do with myself?

Man plans, God laughs.