man, i'm bloody attached to my laptop. so i sort of had a weird emotional breakdown and just stared at silas and started crying for no goddamn reason. it's like staring at a friend in coma i tell you, like you know his alive and still breathing, but hell he's just... in a coma. WAAAAAAAA !
so yeah, in the end my mum sent silas to the lenovo service centre thing. i hope silas recovers :X
and now i feel like i'm... cheating on silas in some weird twisted way. like i'm blogging on this other tiny laptop (my pinky can touch the L and my index finger can reach the A without straining at all. it's that small) and i normally blog on silas :(
and i bet you all think i'm mad/crazy/eccentric/insane/etc. but whattheheck. SILAS !
and it feels so weird, but i'm just not comfortable with this other laptop. i don't feel like reading fanfic or skinning cause it just isnt right. bah!
sigh. and i finished reading breaking dawn yesterday. sort of disappointed the volturi didn't choose to fight but anyway, i cant believe the series is over. guess theres always fanfiction... when silas is back.
and exams next week, but i somehow cant bring myself to care again. i feel sort of... drifty. like everything is happening but not really happening at the same time... i think i should sleep more.
but then i just end up missing christy. i miss having her take up all the blanket at night, about how i would wake up with cat hair on my face but not even care; sigh, i miss being able to hug her to sleep.
so wherever you are right now christy, it's been an amazing five years. i'll love you always.
Everyone says that love hurts.
That's simply not true.
Loneliness hurts,
rejection hurts,
losing someone hurts,
but love never hurts.
