Thursday, November 24, 2011

Au Jour Le Jour

"But feelings are just having a picture on the screen in your head of what is going to happen tomorrow or next year, or what might have happened instead of what did happen, and if it is a happy picture they smile and if it is a sad picture they cry."

"And when you look at the sky you know you are looking at stars which are hundreds and thousands of light years away from you. And some of the stars don't even exist any more because their light has taken so long to get to us that they are already dead, or they have exploded and collapsed into red dwarfs. And that makes you seem very small, and if you have difficult things in your life it is nice to think that they are what is called negligible which means that they are so small you don't have to take them into account when you are calculating something."

- The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon

it's nice to be able to start reading books again, there are so many i want to open and lose myself in. and i used to do that thing where i think of how very small i am in the greater scheme of the universe and it felt comforting to know how insignificant my screw-ups were. except it was really hard to find stars in singapore and i just end up wondering if i'm looking at a star or airplane. but it's nice to know that this same star was shining down on us back then and the starlight i finally get to see today (or not) is something we sort-of shared.

and i'm thinking i'm sort of obsessed, but sometimes a memory helps us to be a little more brave in a frightening world. and that's the beautiful thing about memories. you see everything through rose-tinted glasses and the good will always be there to give you strength and warm fuzzy feelings; and the bad can get the hell lost.