How Could You

HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis, 2001

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh.

You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes

and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask

"How could you?"

-- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub.

My housebreaking took a little longer than expected,

because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed

and listening to your confidences and secret dreams,

and I believed that life could not be any more perfect.

We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream

(I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said),

and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career,

and more time searching for a human mate.

I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks

and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions,

and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" --

still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection,

and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement.

I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled,

and I wanted to mother them, too.

Only she and you worried that I might hurt them,

and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate.

Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend.

They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs,

poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.

I loved everything about them and their touch --

because your touch was now so infrequent --

and I would've defended them with my life if need be.

I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries

and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog,

that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me.

These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject.

I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog,"

and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city,

and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets.

You've made the right decision for your "family,"

but there was a time when I was your only family.

was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter.

It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness.

You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her."

They shrugged and gave you a pained look.

They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog,

even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed

"No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!"

And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship

and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes,

and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.

You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.

After you left,

the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago

and made no attempt to find me another good home.

They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow.

They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.

At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front,

hoping it was you that you had changed your mind --

that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared,

anyone who might save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies,

oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.

I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day,

and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears,

and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come,

but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days.

As is my nature, I was more concerned about her.

The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her,

and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek.

I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago.

She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein.

As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body,

I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured

"How could you?"Perhaps because she understood my dog speak,

she said "I'm so sorry."

She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure

I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned,

or have to fend for myself --

a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "

How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you,

My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you.

I will think of you and wait for you forever.

May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

A Note from the Author: If "How Could You?"

brought tears to your eyes as you read it,

as it did to mine as I wrote it,

it is because it is the composite story of the millions of formerly

"owned" pets who die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters.

Anyone is welcome to distribute the essay for a non-commercial purpose,

as long as it is properly attributed with the copyright notice.

Please use it to help educate, on your websites, in newsletters,

on animal shelter and vet office bulletin boards.

Tell the public that the decision to add a pet to the family is an important one for life,

that animals deserve our love and sensible care,

that finding another appropriate home for your animal is your responsibility

and any local humane society or animal welfare league can offer you good advice,

and that all life is precious.

Please do your part to stop the killing,

and encourage all spay & neuter campaigns in order to prevent unwanted animals.

Jim Willis

what's down this road

sigh. i have no idea what i'm doing with my life at the moment. on the bright side, i'm not into drugs or self mutilation but on the down side, i'm not really into anything.

Too often,
the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have.
Desire leaves us heartbroken,
it wears us out.
Desire can wreck your life.
But as tough as wanting something can be.
The people who suffer the most,
are those who don't know what they want.

a domestic affair

it's saturday night and i'm sitting at home with silas in my room with the aircon at 26degrees. so the fact that it's saturday night is obvious, and since i'm blogging, duh silas is with me. and 26 degrees is just... noobish. but i think i lack a internal body heater or something, so iow i freeze about as easily as tom yam, aka chilli oil soup, makes me hungry.

and that was probably a really weird sentence. but who cares, one of these days i'm gonna lie in my front yard with cookie and we can sunbathe together. for the record, cookie does sunbathe. and i think watching my dogs is really fun.

let's start with vicky. she's like those kind of supermoms. the kind where the kids always listen to her and shes always ready-to-go and fit and all. like the pups never fight with vicky, though that could be because vicky is so much larger... but anw, vicky's probably the healthiest one of the lot. and she's rather energetic but not in the spring-about-like-a-joey-on-crack kind of energetic (that's prince), but more of a... well basically i just think of her (if she were human) as the kind who go jogging everyday and is successful in work and all. and vicky is really lovable, and shes just beautiful. so yes, if vicky was human, she'd probably be the perfect mum-cum-21st century woman.

which would have made it really unlikely that cookie and her would get together. cookie is sort of like... the fun dad. like once in awhile cookie gets into a "fight" with say amber, and it gets really cute. like kimberly and angel will join in and one will take sides while the other just stands on it's back legs and sort of tries to break them up. in the end it's just this really cute tumble of fur and paws and it's just so cute. anyway, cookies is fat, like roll-down-the-stairs fat (he actually did roll down the stairs, oh horrors of horrors) but he's so cute. and fat people are fun people. and at times i tend to think of cookie as like, a dumb blonde cause his fur is sort of blonde, though maybe slightly bleach-y. but yeahs, cookie is just so lovable too. he's really easy going and he'll just rest his cute little head on your arm and fall asleep. like aww, so affectionate, unlike that vicious cretin that goes by the name prince. bleahhh!

anyway, this post is getting really long, so i guess i'll rant about the pups another time. and i love my dogs. they all have such unique personalities and it's just so amazing. vicky cookie angel amber kimberly <3 oh you too, ginger and legolas. i really do miss the two of you.

Happiness is not about having what you want.
It's wanting what you have.
(i sprouted this to joey today in the library's toilet, for some reason. heh hehs)

braindead

aye, i think philosophical discussions at midnight are just weird... and i need to do my lang arts and chinese, but not now. i think i'm gonna stop skinning for awhile, probably a very long while.

ah wells, adios.

BOOM

zzz. facebook is amusing, but the only game that can keep me interested in the heroes one. so fireballs and weird stuff here i go -.-

out the window

ah well, there go my principles. then again, what principles? zzz. but seeing as i've been finding myself extremely bored this days, i've given in and made a facebook account. oh horrors of horrors. zzz. now i just have to figure out how to well, start.

There are two kinds of people in this world;
those who play play stupid games and laugh at themselves,
and others who don't know how to enjoy living

080808

ah ok so ying wants me to post abt national day's eve. so basicallyyyyyyyy, connect singapore went kapeesh. like the class was going mad just standing along the roads and yelling and waving at everyone driving past and why does it feel as if i've typed this before? hmms. dunno but i'm having a weird sense of dejavu.

ok wtv! yeah so pam and her big inflated hand and the rest of 313 (well most of it, if you minus ying and queenie having a bitchslapping marathon and other stoners like me) were shouting "happy national day" to whoever walked/droved/flew/dived passed us. and poor lao shi was so worried we would cause a car accident. zzz.

then suddenly people started a count down so ok lets count down and we counted 3 2 1 and then.... nothing. yeah so randomly said a few lines of the pledge hoping that that was what we were supposed to be doing and then... yeah ok so basically it didnt go as planned, obviously.

after connect sg ying came over to my house and we alternated wasting time in front of the com and reading on the bed. and then we decided to pay youtube a visit and did weird stuff and watched weird stuff and i think i laughed so much i ruptured something. yeah probably.

and my index finger hurts. i think clicking a mouse is bad for you cause yeah, it's not natural! like when we were living in caves and were waving clubs about, we didnt exactly have to click anything. hence, our fingers were not meant for clicking and this is why my index finger is gonna fall off.

yeah, i make so much sense :D

Someday, everything will come together.
But until then, live it up; do what makes you happy.
If someone doesn't agree, then fuck them.

Half Blood Prince!

OWW! i just freakin clamped my finger and now it hurts like freakin hell. oh what the heck. the HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE trailer is out! (ok yeah i'm a little slow)




and like OMG. WHERE THE HELL IS SNAPE! hahas. anw, can't wait to see the movie, which is supposedly gonna be released in singapore on 20th november! lols that's ying's bday, but we're gonna be CHINA. waaaa~! damn damn damn.

oh and mucho thanks to izza for telling me about the trailer and then freakin out with me over snape after i watched it. ahhhh severus, why are you not in the trailerrrr! this is your movie! zzz.

right. my finger has stopped hurting. yay!

bloop bloop

blahh. i'm feeling very weird today. like i ate a bowl of ice cream and cup noodles for dinner and now my sis and mum keep telling me to turn down my music. and i need to do my du shu bao gao but i refuse to do it.

ahhhhhhh! this sucks. heh. i'm think i'm gonna skin. AGAIN -.- i need a new hobby.

In this world, people are going to say
don't do this, don't do this, don't do this.
You know what you're going to end up with?
Nothing to do.
(which is my current problem)

library cip again

waaaa~! lols. went to the library for cip today, but was dreading it the entire way there. like on the bus i was telling zinc how i would keep trying to decide if i should go or not and when the bus nears the stop i'll still get off regardless of what i decided. like... -.-

so did shelf-reading today. and guess what, i got assigned the art section, which also happens to be the messiest section in the library. like its chocked full of books all at the wrong sections cause there just isnt enough space so people who shelf books just place them at the nearest shelf with space. hence, i spent my entire three hours just doing ONE shelf. like both sides but still, ONE shelf. blah... and i was staring at all those number tag thingies and now i see all my 4s with a pink background and all my 6s with a black one. GAH.

and cause the whole shelf was so messed up, i got damn annoyed when i would go back to this particularly part of the shelf (that i'd already sorted) to realise that someone had come along and placed this book that doesnt belong there. yeah, i'm anal like that.

and cause there really was no space for the books, the librarian told me to remove all the old books (like those from the 1990s. hahaha) and i found this book that's older than me :D it was from 1992 i think. or maybe 1990. ok what the heck. but yeah, in the end i had a trolley full of old books and it was kinda sad, cause even though the covers and all were sort of worn out, the books looked really good.

and then there was this pile of the celestial heavens comic or something along those names. i vaguely remember reading them when i was like younger ( ah what fond memories ) and the guys all have really hot long hair :D

so basically, shelf-reading was damn @!#^&%#$#@$ and i ended up just pulling out all the books that weren't at the right place and then i built this huge pile of books on the floor. zzz. the people who walked pass kept looking at me like they thought they ought to report me to the librarian or something.

and i finally have 30 hours of cip :D but unfortunately, i still need to go for more cause i need to do for SIX MONTHS. WAAAAA~!

oh and don't forget the lyrics is cool, though my sis kept complaining about that person's voice and about how irritating it was. but still, the show was nice and the songs are all so old o.O

i'm hungry

la dee do dee dah :D i'm vaguely high, cause i just finished another skin. heh heh heh. but i don't think i'll be using it, cause the posts space is too narrow. but it reminds me a lot of chinese painting, which i don't think mrs teo has returned to us. my purple flowers~! heh.

oh and i was looking through my old random notebooks, and i found something highly amusing.

presenting... (insert title here :D)

harry potter was in the zoo
where he was accused of doing voodoo
because a snake came out and said boo
and everybody ran into the loo

lying in his cupboard snoring
harry potter received a calling
he was so shocked he stopping breathing
and uncle vernon ran around freaking

uncle vernon hid them in a hut
but hagrid blew the door apart
dudley was so scared he clutched his heart
and a tail popped up from his butt

hagrid took harry to diagon alley
where he was suddenly struck silly
because malfoy looked so girly (heh heh heh)
and ollivander mentioned lily

on the first september
he met ron and his mother
as well as hermione granger
and they all shrieked "harry potter!"

ron took out his wand and gave a bellow
"sunshine, daisies, butter mellow,
turn this stupid fat rat yellow!"
but scabbers remained the same ol' fellow

at hogwarts he met the sorting hat
which started talking from where it sat
malfoy acted like a brat
and snape looked like an oversized bat (hey!)

harry and co. got into gryffindor
and ron weasley ate more and more
they climbed so many stairs before reaching their floor
where peeves chased them through their common room door

the next day he met professor snape (yay snape!)
who thought he was a blundering ape
and snape swept around with his billowing cape
which left the class gaping in his wake (that's right! bow down and kiss his feet!)

---

hahas. that rediculous thing was by me and ying in sec 2 but unfortunately, it ends there. oh and the stuff in brackets are just me being unable to resist making comments. anw, woohoo~! snape is hot!

hahas. ok time for bath. toodles.

Disney is amazing

Too many people miss the silver lining
because they're expecting the gold.

new skin again

so i got sick of that stupid skin that took me so long to code, and now i have a much simpler and much more plain skin. for some reason , i prefer this one to the other even though i coded this in like... less than 2 hours. *shrug* i guess there's something appealing in simplicity.

so basically today was rather... mundane. and teachers' day audition didnt go very well. but i guess it was still ok. and the english thing we had first thing in the morning was just so... urgh. what on earth is an antonym or whatsitcalled? the only thing that was interesting was that article on the sleeping late one.

turns out, it's normal for me to sleep at like... 1/2am in the morning. (hops about and laughs at those people who sleep too freakin' early). but when we go to china for that exchange program thing, i think i'll end up sleeping early. like my hibernating instincts will kick in and thankfully i have enough body fats to not freeze.

oh and the words in the skin, like up there, are adapted from a song.

so basically this blows, more than a slut.

ow ow ow

ahhh aching all over and that was really lousy and unintentional alliteration. the fact remains that i'm aching all over and my sis is parading around in a towel. as in only a towel. and do the colours of my skin look weird? i spent like a longggg time just now trying to fix the colours until my eyes started to hurt and i went down to watch the day after tomorrow.

man, i wanna learn to snowboard. and i can ski, you know! ok not really, but i can stay upright :D (most of the time). yeahhh... snowboarding is cool. sexy snowboarding severus snape! hahahahaha. and if you were wondering what i was talking about, it's a fanfic. a highly frivolous one but a hot!snape one none-the-less.

gahs. ITS AUGUSTTT. ok yeah, that's pretty obvious. but i mean it's AUGUST. like what the hell... it's gonna be september in no time and then it'll be sep hols then it'll be EOYS and then it'll be china exchange thing then it'll be december hols then it'll be sec 4 and then we're all gonna die! yeah, i'm hyperventilating.

sigh. time passes so fast. i mean, on friday i was telling myself i'm gonna read a fanfic but now it's sunday night and i havent read one. (and the chapters i read today cause the author updated don't count) boohoo.

i want frozen yoghurt :(

Everything good in life is either immoral, illegal or fattening.

all the red

you know, i never knew singaporeans were so patriotic. then again, i should have known. and there were like... so many people wearing red at city hall today. like a lot. zzz.

and i am feeling highly depressed right now. WAAAAAAA. SINGFEST! gosh...

SIMPLE PLAN!!

sigh. at like... 3 hours from now simple plan will be performing. gahhh! i wanna go! *breaks down in hysterics* damn hell i'm gonna miss you when you're gone. stupid song playing at such an emotional time. WAAAAAAAA!

and to make things worse, my mum and dad and sis are eating durian right now but i can't hit cause i've ate too many over the last weeks. like my dad bought 10 durians three times in a row and i ate so many and now i think i'm gonna get a sore throat. *sigh*

i suspect i have like, tonsillitis or something. i mean according to wiki... the symptoms are like severe sore throat, painful swallowing, headache, fever and chills and change in voice causing a "hot potato" voice. ok i have no idea what a "hot potato" voice is, but i used to get those symptoms very often last time.

oh what the heck. SIMPLE PLAN!!

boohoo.

KICK YOU

i think i finally realise why detonatedlove quit. actually i'm amazed at how long she stayed.

got nothin' to say anymore,
orginality went out that door.

Sad Story - Plain White T's

rantttttt

disclaimer: ok so if you're not interested in reading a whole load of random stuff, i advise you dont bother to read this :D

anw, that aside, i went for library cip today and it was so boring i ended up pondering the mysteries of life and the universe. hehs.

ok so wtv, i've come to realise there have been like, important turning points in my life.

firstly, was moving to central grove. like before i moved, i studied at park view, which was a co ed school. so if i hadnt moved and transferred out, i'd probably be well... different. probably a lot more boyish. and more sporty :X i recall my best friend was this guy who lived next door at that time. zzz.

so yeah... so when we moved house i went to canossa convent primary school. ( oh dear i cant spell the school name even :X shame on me. ) and it was like a catholic (uh i think?) girls school so we had to say prayers and sing hyms every once in awhile. yeps so even though i don't rmbr much, i'd say it was a good cultural thing, what with most of my family and relatives being buddists (i think thats misspelt too).

then along came like this major turning point, like the kind in the movies where the heroine's gonna die and suddenly this really hot hero (like severus snape) comes along and saves the day. yay sev! hahas. ok told you this is random. so yes, major turning point = getting into gep. i mean if i hadn't, i'd still be in canossa and i probably wouldn't be in nanyang and i'd probably never learnt how to skin. and i'd pobably also not know all the people i know now. like my friends will be so damn different. and i'd probably have never started wearing glasses though. that would definitely be a good thing.

so yeahs, then next would have been joining i-club in tao nan. at first, before i found out i like got into gep (which i still can't believe actually happened), i was accepted in canossa's badminton cca. and in tao nan, at first i signed up for badminton there, but then i still remember one day when mrs prakash came down to the class to get kat cause she signed up for i-club. then she was like "-sth about stuff we would learn in iclub- and anyone else interest?" so it was like a spur of the moment thing for me and i was *shrug* why not. so thus, began my life as a geek :D (more or less, but hey i enjoy being melodramatic)

and just for the record, if you dont count kindergarden, i spent 1 year in my first school, 2 in my second, 3 in my third, and now i am in my 3rd out of four years (that's if i dont fail myself out of nanyang) of my fourth school.

lub dub. and hence ends my really boring life story...

and its quite obvious how bored i was shelving books at the library if i actually managed to think about my whole life in that 3 hours.

i need a more exciting life :(

damn ie6

waaaa. this skin isnt compatible in ie6! but what the heck, i'm not gonna change it cause yeahhhhhhhhh. i have no idea how.

and omgosh, my other photobucket account exceeded its bandwidth too! and i only have images from one skin on that account! like hello, host your own images! zzz.

anw, lao shi gave us back our chinese tests today. and gah i failed. again. it's so depressing :(

and i think i'm going to fail maths too, considering that i didn't finish so many questions. and then all the sciences stuff. like wts.

hahas. guys with dark shoulder-length hair turn me on :D

so that was random but yeahh, i was delirious last night and somehow ended up telling dom that but *shrug* its true :D

severus snape has dark hair thats more or less shoulder length :P

oh and cross country was horrible. like stupid larhs, all the upslopes and downslopes and what? and the ground was like so slippery and trip-able. zzz. i'm so not running next year. next year... jo can go run :D and i shall walk the 3.2km and laugh sadistically :D

gahs oh and chinese lecture! i don't want my paper back. like there are supposedly some with single digit marks. it's out of 100 lehs! my gosh. oh and we had a special guest for chinese lecture today :D goes by the surname zhang and the name lang. hahas. a lot of the ppl started screaming and it was so darn amusing. but it was nearing the end of lecture already so the teacher just let us off early. hehs.

oh jolly

hahahas. i just realised my bandwidth for my moon-sonata photobucket account exceeded. zeesh. this is the reason why i dont use image layouts anymore :D

so those with the ugly stuff pasted across your skin, go to blogskins.com, save the images there and host them on your own.

la dee do dee dah.

OH JOY TO THE WORLD

my gosh. this skin took me like... 8 hours to do. EIGHT EFFING GOOD HOURS! *breaks down* oh but thank heavens it works in both ie and firefox now. sigh. i am so not going to check whether this is safari and opera compatible. no way in hell.

ok let me rant about why this took forever. for one, its COMPLETELY css coded. which means the code for this skin is so freakin long. and then i couldn't get the footer to work so i resorted to using z-index but then somehow the preview and actual blog looked different. like totally cheat my feelings larh! in the preview, the navigations worked fine at the bottom, but then when i saved template and viewed blog, the thing flew up to the damn top. waaaaa! then i couldn't bring it back down so i gave up and left it at the top. but now theres this grey strip there that won't go away and i have no idea where it came from.

damn i'm gonna cry man. then there was the problem of getting that stupid black line to appear below the bars. like for some reason it wanted to be above the bars even though it was a border-top for the words. bleargh. then after that i checked in firefox, and to my utter horror, the alignment was completely off for the stupid reason that the two browsers render paddings differently. AHHH. so in the end i resorted to margins and crossed my fingers that it would work. now the coding is all bad and broken but at least it works.

WAAAAAAAAA! i don't think i'll submit this skin. ever. i'm not sharing this! it took me eight hours! * skips off laughing like an utter maniac*

sigh. i think i'm in one those "you either laugh or cry" situations again. sigh. hopefully i wont be awake when my body decides which it wants to do.

snoozles

i have no idea what the title means but it sounds interesting so *shrug* anw, haven't updated for awhile. the block tests have been extremely disappointing. SIGH. the class's average for chinese is failing mark! i'm so DEADDDDD. and then everything else was equally disastrous. i'm taking solace from the fact that i can't remember what i wrote for all my exams.

but away with block tests! i finished making a new skin yesterday and it has a earthly tones that i find extremely calming. but that skin aint for my blog, nor am i gonna submit it. you'll find out what it's for in due time ;D

oh but i am gonna change my skin soon. and it's gonna be... a little naughty :D ok not really, depends on personal opinions i guess. but yeahhhh. new skin coming and it's gonna be something with a dark base. probably dark greyyyy.

i suddenly have the urge to cut my nails... urgh i lack a nail clipper :(

AHH THERES A MOTH CLIMBING UP MY FOOT!

phew. it's gone now. oh speaking of weird creatures, i watched Ni'm Island today. the storyline is a little unrealistic, but ok i guess. basically this girl and her daddy live on this island, but no one know where it is. then theres this author who writes about this hero who goes on great adventures but she herself in afraid of leaving her house and is obsessive about cleanliness. zzz so stuff happen which i shan't tell you in case you wanna watch it :D oh but i find the flying lizards extremely amusing.

blah. CROSS COUNTRY on monday! *faints* it's like 3.2km larhs... what am i gonna do?

so yeahhhhhh. i have to do my 2 du shu bao gaos. how depressing. and i dont get to enjoy my after-exams cause there's still school! i think theres a reason why exams are normally just before holidays. blearugh!

Don't tell me you're sorry,
Cause you're not,
And baby when I know,
You're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show.
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.
But it's over now.
Go on and take a bow.

splat.

kapeesh. the IH paper was relatively ok today, but i think i missed out all those key points/words things. ah wells. i cant remember a single thing of IH now :X but i'm just really glad they tested something i studied. *phew*

the lang arts... was sad. i was totally expecting some really really emo poem, seeing as all the practises we've had were for emo poems. but gosh. the poem was so weirdddd. personally, i don't really like it. it felt rather... lousy. amateurish. etc.

and then physics. ah that one was like o.O AHHH. ok so that makes no sense. basically, physics was baddddddd. and i made some really stupid mistakes but what the heck. f that balloon. *sulks*

anw, three down, and many more to go :(

i seriously can't wait for block tests to end. i wanna skin! like i've been dyinggggg to do a severus skin. bleahs. and i'm feeling vaguely stoned now. like x.x kind of thing. but by the end of the week it'd probably be T.T or ~.~

heh. chinese tomorrow. that one is a gurantee fail. how sad.... nahs.

The rain fell in fat droplets, each one bursting with a tiny insignificant "splat" as it hit the concrete skin of the road. "splat. splat. splat." It was raining, so what? It was cold, and so? The people hurried about, with somewhere to be and something to do. They went about their daily business, feeling important, needed. She watched all these impassively from afar. The rain was coming down harder, the people rushing to get to to where ever they had to be with a renewed sense of urgency. "splat. splat. splat." She watched, and then she left, for she too was in a hurry -- a hurry to get away.

AHHHHHHHHH

ok i'm breaking out into hysterics. i just realised we have an IH textbook. omgosh i'm so going to fail IH tomorrow. oh dear oh dear oh dearrrrrr. AHHHH.

and i've no idea why i'm blogging now. probably something to do with the fact that i've gone mad. like i'm either gonna laugh or cry soon and this is so not good.

AHHHH.

if i die, bury/cremate me with lots of fanfic!

stupid bee

gah. some stupid bee is humping my lights. *sulks*

ok that sounds wrong. but what the heck. ITS SATURDAY. and ALMOST sunday. omgosh. revision! i am soooooo dead. sigh. i always end up like this. sucks sucks sucks.



anw, cool car :D freaky, but cool.

skirting sanity

block tests are next week. havent started revision... sigh i'm so gonna die. and... *shrug* feeling very strange right now.

Skin change!

egads. this skin took me an insanely long time to code. the css was KILLING ME. but its DONE!

yay! and it's named tears on the balcony for no reason at all except maybe cause ying just sprouted that name and ye~ahhh. and i suppose i'm making it a habit of naming skins after fanfic.

tra la la. ok gonna go read ff now. toodles.

Insomniac

sigh. i need to sleep earlier. and i just finished what i hope will get me a pass for my word+arts assignment. seriously, i hope i pass. but i haven't read a proper book in like so long and gahhh. fanfiction aint exactly good for building up your writing skills. and well, my personal recount doesnt recount anything! oh i'm doomed. :(

on another equally depressing note, sheeppigg is broke. our stocks arent doing well and we keep getting send score errors. which really sucks.

but on a happier note, theres no school on friday so i might finally get the chance to make a skin. which i'm thinking of submitting for that css based skin competition. zzz.

sigh. i wanna take part in the bidol competition. to like, make a skin of severus snape. i just looked at the sev one i submitted for the heropetition and i realised i actually like it lols. but yeahs... i wanna skin.

but exams are next week! and i havent started studying. i'm so gonna die die die die. bleargh. and then after exams we have that 3.2km cross-country. if the exams don't kill me, that will.

oh and now that i'm done ranting, today jo dragged me to go and meet two possible suppliers for the cca jacket. and we always ended up at the wrong place. hence causing us to take forever to find the shop. which sucks. got home rather late cause of that and yeahhhh. i wonder what other homework i havent done.

finite.

Mad ramblings

live and let live,
but it's a dog-eat-dog thing.
someone's gotta go.

SHEEPPIGG

HAHAHAHA. me and ying made a neopets account today. hehs. reliving childhood memories. hahaha! :D

so yeahs. sheeppigg! sheep, pig, with a g. hehs. and the pet we chose looks really weird cause we were aiming for something that looked like a cross btwn a sheep and a pig. but yeahhhhh. and it's called king yai :D k -ing, y -ai. ok we're damn lame but what the heck.

and having a tablet is AMAZINGGG. i played that weird buzzer game that has a thing that looks like a gecko and i made it to like... lvl 6 or 7 or something. for the first time. like omgosh, a tablet makes so much difference. using a mouse i cudnt even pass lvl 1.

oh and yes. apparently the rest of the class is making neopets accounts too! like bea sal chels. hahahas. but i think sal is using her old one. my old neopets account is damn noob. :(

and next week school is going to be damn retarded. today we had half the class missing (well almost) and next week half our teachers wont be around (probably more). it's just so... gahs.

and i hope ms khoo lets us watch the wind that blows the rice the wind that shakes the barley. HAHAHAHA.

tra la la. i wanna change my skin :( but i wanna read fanfic. so i guess skinning will just have to wait.

going nuts

AHHH. i hate strongly dislike math. AMES is driving me crazy. its so darn HARD. hahahahahahahaha. ok ignore the double innuedo. though it disturbs me that whining about math can end up sounding vaguely erotic. *shrug* the stress has gotten to me.

and i want to skin so badly. but omgosh fanfic. and CHRISTY IS STILL MISSING. why isnt anyone calling in to say they've seen her :( WAAAAAA~! T.T *sniffles* christyyyyy where are you!

sigh.

i need you.

Christy, please come home.

zzz zzz

i wanna be a koALA.

they sleep 19 hours a day!

:D

bwaaaa

i'm missing christy :( and i'm posting again cause i'm still awake thanks to ying talking with a funny chinese accent and jo doing whatever jo does.

so yeahs, did this on... uh saturday i think :D

it's like... really weird but yeahs. im not some pro or whatever so yeahs. oh and its done with paint, as in paper and brush kind of paint.

Superhero movie!

hahas :D watched superhero movie today (sunday) and it rocks. like its freakin funny cause its basically a spoof of all the movies with a superhero. and the lead guy, who is a spoof of spiderman, is drake bell *gasp* was so surprised to see him in any role other than drake in like disney's drake and josh. but he looked REALLY WEIRD as DRAGONFLY MAN. like god, its a skin tight suit and he doesn't even have a good bod :X

ok yeahs, great movie, shant spoil it for anyone who wants to watch :D oh and theres no sex or nudity or whatnot so its safe for lil kiddos. but theres like... language so yeahs. :D

with great power, comes great bitches responsibility :D

hahas. love the movie.

i'm obivously being random again

you know what?

CURLY HAIR IS A DOMINANT TRAIT.

well it's recessive in guinea pigs but not the point. like omgosh. its dominant and yet so few ppl have it. i mean i can count the number of people i know with natural curly hair on my hands!

hahas. yeps random fact and now back to fanfic :D and for the record, i'm reading the MPD one again and it rocks. i expect to make a skin named after it soon :P

three hundred and eighty eight

:D funfair today was fun! and our class earned $388! ok so that ain't a lot but still.... considering the fact that i thought we were gonna die... yeah it's quite good. did a lot of painting today, and painted a masquerade mask on ying. which doesnt look very good but uh yeahs. it's not too bad for a first time thing k!

then yeahs did random hand painting. played around with some freehand stuff. random stuff yeahs. sadly, no pics cause joey refuses to send me. she insists i make a facebook account and get the pics from her fb but blah! i suppose it doesnt really make a diff.

oh and lao shi, mr ang, mrs lai, ms hanim and some tr i don't know came to get hand painting from our stall :D lao shi got this really pretty sun thingy and mr ang got this macho looking tattoo like painting. hahahahaha. can't rmbr which hand painting design mrs lai took, but i just know they were really mean to her and sprayed her with lots of hairspray. ms hanim got a rose design and i did a random free hand thing for that tr i don't know. hehs.

so sad no one would let me paint their face freehand :(

but thank god for joey's stencils man. without them we wudnt have been able to paint anything, i swear. and sal's hairspraying was freaky. oh and i ate half a shepherd's pie, one baked rice and two ice cream floats :D for some reason that doesnt add up to 10 bucks. wonder where my coupons went. zzz.

FACE PAINTING :D

hahahaha. went to ying's house after school today to come up with designs for funfair tmr :X i think we're gonna die. but what the heck, painting was fun :D




the ones on me were painted by ying and the ones on ying were painted by me. i'm so pro right :D *grins* and the black and white striped one was a nightmare to remove. da dee do dee dah. i think i'll post a longer post tomorrow, but for now, i'm gonna go look for chocolate.

ciao.

bandwidth went boom

hahas. my bandwidth exceeded again. *hops around and sticks out tongue at those people with "bandwidth exceeded" images splattered across like blogs*

who ask you don't upload the images to your own photobucket/imageshack/whatever accs. heh heh heh.

then again, i shouldnt be so happy cause i'ts 2 in the morning and i'm still awake. but what the heck. i bet i'm slowly taking years off my life by sleeping so little but hell. that might actually be a good thing, considering how the world seems to have been predestined for doom in the near future. i just hope i get to read a good ff before i die.

or the world ends.

or something.

sigh. i should be doing my lang arts reflections... but it's so... irritating in that i have no idea what to write. and i find it really weird that they make us write reflections and then grade them. for one, reflections are personal, what gives anyone the right to read them. for two, they're my reflections, what gives anyone the right to say how good it is. heh. they want me to reflect on what i've learnt, well this is what i learnt from my lang arts sia.

but sigh, since when have we been given a choice. we're made to do reflections so often and i suppose thats the reason why everything has become so standard in most reflections. i mean, you can't exactly expect a student to bare their hearts on some piece of paper and then hand it on a silver platter to the teacher to either praise or rip to shreds.

i think the whole idea of reflections is a really twisted one.

oh and yes, i've change my blogskin. took me a long time to code. any comments?

and i reallyyyy like this song. if it hasn't started playing, either turn up your volume or wait for it to load. it's worth a listen.

PRINCEEEE~!

you know something is wrong when your cat goes missing and the first place you look is inside the fridge.

hoohah

whee. i just dug my ears today, and now everything is so freakin clearrrr! omgosh i can hear my fan whirring away. my keyboard making stupid clucky noises when i type. and the ants as they scuttle about trying to steal more food from me.

ok so i cant hear the ants. but its a form of writing :D hyperbole, which in chinese would be the 修辞手法“夸张”. hahas. i think using chinese words but with the english order of words sort of screws everything up. but what the heck.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, LET US PUT OUR HANDS TOGETHER IN THE USUAL NANYANG WAY TO WELCOME...

CAPTAIN FLUFFY!

hahas. so cute right? and that put your hands together thing was the AE seminar today. which was really really... well it was ok actually.

anw, me and ying went to bras basah to buy paint for funfair today. and we saw all these stuff made of styrofoam. which was so cool :D

hahas. when i saw that i proclaimed airhead! which led to me and ying knocking on the head trying to see if it was hollow. hahas. oh and i would post more pictures, but since im rather against posting pictures of myself online (or at least winky says i shud be), i shant :D

anw, i watched THE EYE. it was really really really really really really nice. and i screamed a lot. i love horror movies :D

and now, to do all my projects. i dont need to sleep tonight :(

mood: moody.

i want to go back to being a kid again,
when all i ever had to worry about was getting the right answer;
when going home late only meant missing that television show,
when staying up late was for playing games and not work;

i want to go back to being a kid again,
when making the wrong choice was nothing more than a loss of one mark;
when going out was to watch movies and chill;
when staying back after school was for fun and not school;

i want to go back to being a kid again,
when getting angry only led to shouting;
when a fight usually ended with a sincerely said "sorry";
when every problem could be fixed with a hug;

and little girls hadn't yet learnt to bitch.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY :D

Once a year we celebrate with stupid hats and plastic plates
The fact that you were able to make another trip around the sun
And the whole clan gathers round and gifts and laughter do abound
And we let out a joyful sound and sing that stupid song

Happy Birthday
Now you're one year older
Happy Birthday
Your life still isn't over
Happy Birthday
You did not accomplish much
But you didn't die this year
I guess that's good enough

So let's drink to your fading health and hope you don't remind yourself
Your chances of finding fame and wealth decrease with every year
Does it feel like you're doing laps and eating food and taking naps
And hoping that some day perhaps your life will hold some cheer

Happy Birthday
What have you done that matters?
Happy Birthday
You're starting to get fatter
Happy Birthday
It's downhill from now on
Try not to remind yourself
Your best years are all gone

If cryogenics were all free then you could live like Walt Disney
And live for all eternity inside a block of ice
But instead your time is set this is the only life you get
And though it hasn't ended yet sometimes you wish it might

Happy Birthday
You wish you had more money
Happy Birthday
Your life's so sad it's funny
Happy Birthday
How much more can you take
But your friends are hungry
So just cut the stupid cake

Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday

hahahas. i love that song :D

first day of school

was a nightmare. an utter horrifying nightmare. sigh. for the record, i hate ih assignments. they're so... massive. sigh. i know i'm throwing a childish hissy fit right now, but what the heck.

blah blah blah what?

AHHHHHHH. omg back to school panic. BSP -.- well that sort of sucks. cause that just reminded me i have chinese lecture work to do. shit shit shit shit shit. zzz. gotta keep this skin PG13 so no f words :D

blah -.- i think i just got derailed. oh what the heck. AHHHH SCHOOL TOMORROW CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! and i wanna SKIN. again. but oh my gosh, homework is like all not done. *faints and flops like a fish* i've been doing that a lot lately o.O

The Happening

watched it today. my verdict, not worth the money. go buy donuts instead. or you could do both, like me :D

anyway the story line isnt very strong. if it were a compo, i think it'll get about... 18/30. the plot is mainly just a lot of run ons, without a resolution at the end. it lacks impact and is nothing spectacular. it's mainly a lot of gore, like when some guy got his arms ripped off at the elbows by tigers or some guy got run over by a large lawn mower. yeps, definitely a gory one. but if you're looking for gore, final destination has that, plus a better story line.

so movie summary. something's causing ppl to kill themselves, they don't know what. so basically the people just keep trying to run from it. and of course, as in most movies, the leads survive and have happily ever after. at the end of the movie, you don't find out whats killing the people. really disappointing.

new skin!

this took me awhile. but not as long as i expected. anw this looks a little weird but what the heck. oh and i changed my blog counter :D

so cute :D

anw, this skin's basically inspired by westlife's us against the world. i think i will be making a skin on something right soon. see if i can find the time :X

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together
I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

go listen to the song, it's great.

blah blah blah

pfft. i hate it when my sis comes by and starts an arguement when im skinning :(

now i sort of lost the momentum and i'm stuck. but what the heck. i got a new sling bag. its the rugsack back from zinc :D i think i'll bring it to shanghai at the end of the year.

oh and i went to get a passport size photo for my nric today (!!) and yeahs, the guy advised me to wear a polo tee so my mum and i wandered around bedok looking for a polo tee that i might one day wear again. so bought one, it's blue, and now i officially own one non school collared shirt. and the photo looks damn uglay. like my head was tilted (how was i supposed to know, it's not like i can see myself) and shoulders slanted and yeah. looks really weird. and my mum made me push a lot of my fringe back so now it just looks stupid :(

and i don't think i'll be wearing the polo tee anytime soon.

baby, time flies and we ain't getting a second try.

-skinning in progress-

i love post its!

hahas. im feeling very high now cause my mum just gave me this stack of post its! yay :D ok whatever, i'm weird like that. i have like *counts* 16 postits stuck to that "noticeboard" thingy in front of me.



hahas. anw i managed to send some stuff from my phone to silas via bluetooth so here are some really random pictures.

heh. ying's very abstract looking mirror. i think we were supposed to do uhh... chinese sia but then we ended up distracted. so i vaguely rmbr rolling over and taking a random picture o.O

oh and i found this when i was doing my SAC duty in week 10. i'm amazed i even found one at all, the club is so unbonded.

and that, is my mum carrying prince in a bag. he looks quite cute i guess. but he bites. like hell.

i fell asleep on the sofa this afternoon (when it was raining real heavily. heh. ying's tribal rain dance worked) and then was woken up when prince started charging at me. he like lept into the air and did the whole spin-twirl-flash claws-hiss thing. zzz. and even though he only has like one sharp tooth left (the rest broke off. hah!), it still hurts. blah.

and i'm so happy christy's here. i hope she stays the night :D been a longgg time since she slept in my room. the last time was before we got prince. heh. i shall bribe her with catfood :D

toodles :D

boo!

professor
snape
caught
malfoy
and
zabini
in
the
lab
hiding
compromising
materials
showing
graphic
pictures.

my reactivity series :D or i could just stick to posioned sausages can make a zebra ill therefore let highly clever men slaughter god pigs. but where's the fun in that.

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@joseph: i was sort of expecting someone tall dark and handsome. HAHAHA. jking :D and you're just big and gay, no fat :P

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bs outing!

bs outing was really fun today. well in a weird way it was. hahas. when i first got to bedok mrt right, didn't know where they were so i wandered around like the gundu i am until i found this group of ppl sitting at the side. so i like stared. and laughed. and stared somemore. and i think there was more laughing. -.- but yeahs in the end took 196 to east coast and we didnt know where to alight but by some stroke of luck, we got off and found ourselves at the underpass which eventually led to the bbq pit (with some walking of course).

to be honest, i have to agree with sylvia. everyone was very different from how i expected them to be. like seriously different but what the heck. bs outing was cool :D

and i'm most definitely female. or at least i think so :X

ah i wish the avatar chapter would load so i can watch it.

"relax, firebending is not to be feared. but if you don't respect it, IT'LL CHEW YOU UP AND SPIT YOU OUT LIKE AN ANGRY KOMODO RHINO!"

hahahaha. zukko rocks :D

*laughs* *chokes* *dies*

:D i love fanfiction. it's the best thing in the world! whoo~ hahas.

and i think i just swallowed a spider.

o.O yeahs. i opened this compartment in my shelf that my sis has dubbed "the smelly one" and found a spider web. to be precise, it was on my softball glove, attached to the ball that's still in the glove. which is just gross. i think i'll never stick my hand in that glove again. i mean, it's been left in an enclosed cupboard for more than a year. i'm quite sure things would have started growing in it :X

bleah. on the other hand, bs outing tomorrow! hahas. and omg it so late and again i havent bathed. but this fanfiction is good. harry and severus are hiding out on a SHEEP farm. mwahahaha. and recently on avatar, i think it's chapter 9, there were SHEEP as well. it's the chapter where anng goes mad and has hallucinations of momo and appa having a samurai showdown. hahas. avatar is the loveee. :D

zukko is hot :P but severus is still hotter. i wonder what zukko's surname is. i don't think the avatar characters have full names. *shrug* but i wanna be a water bender :( fire sounds interesting but nahs. earth... nah. air... maybe. heh.

and my sis has decided to grace me with her presence -.- (sarcasm somehow just doesnt work on the com) sigh. she's started on her rant on her bang bang tang. oh wait. she decides to correct that it's xiao jie -.- like that means anything to me.

right, toodles.

Milk and cookies cure all agonies

milk and cookies are the most amazing thing in the world. yes, even better than fanfiction. and i have no idea why im blogging at this hour. its gonna b 3am soon. but what the heck. i should be sleeping reading this wonderful fanfic.

which i shall go back to doing soon.

i think bugs like my room too much. a beetle flew around and went crashing into my cup of water earlier. and now, theres another beetle on my curtain on a moth behind my door. -.-

bugger off man.

right, back to fanfiction.

horoscope

whee~! i found this really cool and indepth horoscope thing. it's quite cool.

http://www.soulindia.com/12signes/

someone save me

i'm out of severus fanfics :(

craving donuts

urgh. hungry, and i have to wake up at 6.30 later. and i've just spent the last hour doing absolutely nothing. like at around 1 i stopped playing tic-tac-toe poker with yk (for the record i still don't get it) and i was supposed to go to sleep.

sigh.

it's creepy how times flies.

and we're all dying. cause each day brings us closer to the day we die.

neopets is freaky

for some unfathomable reason, i decided to try to get into my neopets account today. and after some fiddling here and there, i finally got the password right. and neopets has changed like so much. and i feel like such a noob lols. zzz. man... my account was created in like march 28 2002. thats like SIX YEARS ago. like *gasp*

if i had played like some obscenely obsessed person, i wonder what my account would be like. but then again, i'm quite glad i stopped :X not that i have anything against neopets, just that i've played quite a number of games since then. runescape (which i forgot my password), powerpets (which i forgot both user and password -.-), maple (which is way too freaky now too), and audi... and i wonder what else.

let's see. hmms. 2002 would be p3... so that was neopets. then p4... i started runescape, or maybe it was later. p5 started maple? i think so. maple and maybe powerpets for a short while... after that quit maple in sec 1. started reading fanfic :D like at the end of the year. and then... sec 2 started audi. and now... blogskinning. hahaha.

dum dee dum dee dum. i think i'll stick to blogskinning and fanfic reading for now :D

ouch

sigh. in a foolish attempt to comprehend the nightmare they call trigonometry, i have given myself a splitting headache. and learnt nothing in the process of doing so.

and after going through... 5 pages (i'm amazed i made it that far), i think it's time to give up :D

i think i shall go and hunt for another fanfic, preferably one that doesnt cheat my feelings after 100 000+ words.

i mean... severus and harry never got together! like what the heck. that just plain sucks and the main point of the story was so stupid. i mean, harry loved voldermort to death. like seriously. loved him enough that he could kill him. which is just... such a stupid dumbledore-y kind of thing. blah.

i hope chewing gum isn't addictive.

argh

damn it. my photobucket acc bandwidth thingy isnt resetting itself. so now all my links are still disabled. waaaa~! but no wonder, i have like 972080 monthly hits. ahhh! all you lazy people out there go host your own freakin images and don't kill my photobucket acc! blah. *fumes*

-.- bleargh. and now i shall just wait for it to reset. tra la la. and people keep giving my skins crappy ratings cause the bandwidth exceeded image keeps popping up. urgh.

and i've run out of chewing gum. :(

and cookies too :((

(that looks like a double chin o.O)

and half the holiday is goneee and my homework is still there collecting dust. and the stupid projects. sigh.

hey y'all

hahas. i've exceeded my bandwidth for my photobucket account so all those images that are like hosted there wont load. which actually looks really ugly. but the bandwidth is gonna be reset tomorrow so no worries :D but for now... you'll just have to stare at those ugly




things that are gonna tile across your entire screen! hahas. anw, just for the record, i've made another photobucket acc and named it purple-socks. don't ask me why, i just happened to be wearing some when i made it. *shrug*

and so, off to read this lovely fanfic :D it's slash. whoohoo~ and angsty :P

whoever said sex and murder are men's only pleasures obviously never read fanfiction. poor guy.

panic attack

AHHH~! lols. for like, awhile just now, my com went wacky on me. like the my computer couldn't work and my internet explorer wouldn't work and everything sort of hung. and died and then my virus scan couldn't work but thank the powers that be cause everything is back to normal again.

silas please don't scare me like that.

yeah wells i'm going mad. and drowning in homework. eeee~! *random savage war cry* o.O yeahs definitely mad. but anw... i think i'm gonna change my skin. getting tired of this all white one. working on this diary style skin... it's super random. and i shall code it another day cause coding like sucks.

so now, time for a daily dose of random fengshuiiii :D hahas. you know how people in the past used to think that studying is very important? what with all the parents wanting their kids to be scholars and what not and it's not very different now. anw, it's a long-held belief that a god named Wen Chang has a name list of all the people sitting for an exam. hence, to increase one's luck in passing an exam, one should place the study table facing Wen Chang's direction. (and for the record, i have no idea what direction that is)

anw, to get into the qualifying name list, people in the past would die die avoid breaking some taboos, one of them being reading books in the toilet. this would be disrespecting Wen Chang and he/she will never pass the exam! mwahahaha!

so yes, moral of the story is, if you don't wanna kena fail your exam, don't study in the toilet.

also, some very superstitious gamblers don't allow their children to study in front of them in the morning cause the chinese pronunciation of book is like shu which is the same as lose. so yeahs, but children are supposedly more receptive to information in the morning.

ah young impressionable minds.

anw, since i didn't post yesterday, i shall make this post long so here's another fengshui taboo for you. don't take pictures in threes. hahahas. the flash is believed to suck the soul of the middle person away. hehs :P

and some random stuff about which zodiac aint compatible with which.

1. rat and horse
2. ox and goat/ram
3. tiger and monkey
4. rabbit and rooster
5. dog and dragon
6. snake and pig

so yeahs, those matches are apparently a big no-no. i wonder who's a rabbit... *shrug*

so there, your daily dose of fengshui. toodles :D

random stuff

ok i hate maths. i've done like worksheet 11.1 and then 11.2 just looks too freaky to do. which leads to me doing damn damn random stuff :D

kai lin --

[noun]: A person who is a master of making ravioli

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

o.O ravioli. according to wiki, "Ravioli is a popular type of pasta, comprised of a filling, commonly (though not always) meat-based, sealed between two layers of pasta dough. Ravioli are commonly rectangular or circular in shape. " right.

How good are you at vampire hunting? My Result: Vampire Hunter

You are a hunter of the undead you can handle any regular vampire. You usually attack in groups to 2 or more. (you get weopons and info from watchers and monks.)

hahas. so that one was utterly random. but what the heck. die! hahahas.

What Hogwarts House Are You In? My Result: Slytherin

Well, well, well, you're in Slytherin. You are cunning and ambitious. And you teach people not to mess with you when they come across your path. You are like Voldemort, Draco and Snape!! Take What Hogwarts House Are You In? Find more quizzes at Quibblo.com

hmms. cunning... not so sure. ambitious. maybe. cross my path. i doubt it, my dogs seem to do that a lot. but who cares. i'm in severus's house! wheee~! :D

How old do you act? (personality quiz) My Result: 14-16

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well thank god for that. for a moment i was worried i was like... 9.
oh and did you know, that plastic end of a shoelace is called an aglet.

new counter

look at that cute little thing up there! it's so adorableeee :D hahaha. anw, i don't expect to get a lot of hits, but omg that thing is sooooooo cute :D hahahaha.

anw, i was rather upset yesterday cause my sis ate all the cookies but my mum bought more so yay :D cookies are the loveeeee. mmms.

right, being really random. and i don't know why. blah. stupid aeroplane just zoomed past. so damn noisy. heh. i just remembered that it used to take me a very long time to get the spelling of aeroplane right. hippotamus? looks wrong. oh. the correct spelling is hippopotamus. anw, there was once me and sal took a cab home and the taxi driver was trying to convince us that hippopotamus was spelt like in some way and sal was saying it was spelt another way. (me being a crappy speller decided to just watch) so yeahs i think sal went back to check and apparently he was wrong. but what the heck. some taxi drivers are funny. like there was once i was with ying and bea and i think queenie or something. ok not sure who was there but the taxi driver was telling us some funny rhyme about nanyang girls....

which i cant remember at the moment. but i think it had something to do with walking and butts.

i'm a bittergourd

and i've never eaten one before o.O hehs. bom training today was quite fun, surprisingly. i think i'm addicted to chewing gummm! ahhh! it's the only thing that keeps me awake. and i was so damn sleepy today cause i had to wake up at like 5.30. reached school about 7.30 and was thoroughly woken up when lao shi drove passed waving in that very happy lao shi way. and then ang jl drove passed as well and he was like... stone. then suddenly his hand bobbed up and down. zzz. weird teachers. my dad seems to think lao shi is like, a china woman. *gasp*

but yeah so for the bom training they made us light this candle thing which looked vaguely like a cowbell and then went about doing stations. zzz. then they did the weird kidnapping thing and oh, we were in four groups so four ppl were like dumped at the staircase to the shooting range there. so me and amanda and two sec 1s were like kidnapped and so sat there stoningggggg away before our groups found us. and the way they kidnapped xing ning was so... lame. they like told her miss sabrina wanted to see her and like gah. i still think they should have just used potato sacks.

so basically my group finished first, heh heh. but our poor candle sort of burnt out at our last station, so there was this short stump left in the toilet cause it got too hot to hold. like what a crappy place to like.... die off. then after that we played this game. its like the obs one where you run, meet in the center and play scissors paper stone, cept when you crash ur supposed to sit down to avoid violence. o.O but then my group like lost so the other group sprayed water at us with those really cute water guns that looked like polka dotted green dinosaurs :D

after that was some lecture on youth day fun fair and i freaked out when i realised elsa hasnt started. it's on 4th july! ahhhh~! and bea goes on holiday tmr morning so there goes one committee head. and ying is like. in china. *flails hand in that retarded kai way*

so yeahs we had that talk called team building, the "yong tau fu" way. basically it was quite fun, and ms chee (the one that used to be a dean or sth) showed us some short video clips and some were from that qi gong zhu korean show! but damn sad younan didn't appear :(

he's hot :D

heh. this post is so long o.O oh and i've come to the conclusion that me and joey are bittergourds and ying and sal are fishballs. hahahas. fishballs are the one that have a tendency to roll around, aka short attention span and really random but funny people. and bittergourds are like really pessimistic people who believe in murphy's law of what can go wrong will go wrong. heh. oh and in jo's case, she thinks too much as well. oh and i suspect a large bulk of the guai kias in our class are bee hoons. chilli... i think pam's a chilli. hmms. dunno :D

ahhh food and fun fair. my head's gonna roll.... WAAAAA~!

shopppingggg

hahas. went shopping today :D and i got this really cool pants with detachable suspenders! hahahas. suspenders are cooooool. and my sis went into a tie craze. o.O but heck, ties are cool but really ex. and my sis seems to like stuff with skulls on it. don't see the draw of it though. but heck. suspenders :D hahahaha.

and bugis street is so creepy. so much gothic-like clothing. like black red white and lace and things! hahaha. OHHHH. but 77th street has this reallyyyy cute bag! its like a sling, that's like black and red. it's black on the outside and the outside is like zippable so it's like unzipping a jacket and then theres a red checkered thingy inside. hahas i think that made no sense. but heck, it's damn cute! sadly, it's like 43 bucks or around there and i'm brokeeee :(

oh but it's like, the great singapore sale now, which really rocks cause i think i'll get myself a rabbit bag or some other bag as a present to myself :D been planning on getting a new sling bag for a longggg time. like one that's quite large. but not too large. like those zinc/ink gurney sack thingys. heh gurney sacks. but don't really like the one made of that cloth-y thing. probably will get one that's soft leather-y or something.

hahas. shopping high.

i love my suspenders. :D

gender crisis

hahas. guess what. the new cat, who we thought was a girl, is actually maleeeeee. hahahas. i guess the name prince was apt after all.

anw, i spent two hours at the library today. couldn't find any materials for the ih assignment. howww~ and i think i will have to rewatch the sicko movie. which more or less sucks. :(

argh i think i'm going to screw up my sec 3 year. which sucks as well.

the only thing that rocks right now is chewing gum.

oh but i found out my bottle had a crack in the cover today. had to throw it away and that's just really depressing. i've been using it like... since last year i think. i got it from that NEmation thing, which we got kicked out of :( but i've got sentimental attachment to my bottle. waaaa~! sigh. i'm weird like that.

Move on. It's just a chapter in the past. Don't close the book, just turn the page.

ostrich philosophy

AHHH. homework overload. so much work to do. oh shit oh shit oh shit. heh. and i spent my entire day today skinning, like what the heck. sigh. the homework i'm dreading the most is ih, the healthcare assignment and the literature review. like omgosh. it's going to be freakin hard to write. then all the crazy reports as well.

sigh.

hmms i can't remember what i wanted to say... oh the jalan something road sign toppled over.

but that wasn't what i wanted to say either. zzz. what the heck. i'm gonna go stick my head in a sheep and never come out. ostrich philosophy :D

if i can't see my homework, my homework can't see me.

misery loves company, and he's been lookin' for me.

tag responses:

@JIA.NING

heys. i'm from infocomm club :D

charge!

can you imagine sitting in like starbucks and then two elephants come charging in? hahas. that's what happened somewhere, thailand i think. the elephant ran out of a children's parade and crashed through the glass walls and doors of the shop. heh heh.

and i don't get why my dogs seem to enjoy depositing excretory products at certain spots. like kimmy will walk to this spot, pee, then angel will walk over, pee over that, and then cookie comes along and pees as well. that's just so weird it's disturbing.

and my dogs seem to enjoy eating flowers o.O

oh wells. i think my imeem playlist thing laggs a lot. but what the heck. i finished my chinese book report :D mwahaha. its like 600 words after some cutting. it was like 800 at first but this is supposed to be like, the simple one with 200 words or so. blahs.

egads. i have a lot of work lined up to do once i'm done with ames. and that just sucks.

and i've killed 9 mosquitos today :X

modified the skin

blahs. i need to finish a book review and ames by today. yet i'm fooling around with the skin... heh. changed the image above the navs to headphones. took me awhile to find an image that could convert into lines nicely but yeps. hahas. oh and spent awhile drowning in imeem and ta da. a short play list. :D

now back to reading the stupid chinese book. tell me what you think of the skin! even if it's really ugly just say so.

it's raining :D

wheee. it's raining. which is much better than it being insanely hot. my fan ain't even on :X hahas. and i'm feeling vaguely high, cause my beyond words skin has finally gotten enough 5.0 ratings to raise my all time rating to 5.00 :D heh heh. sadly it's not on the top rated skins list cause i have a 4.5 rating :( but oh wells.

cheerios.

and i have a chinese book to read for my book review... it's due friday :X ah wells, 211 pages more to go! jiayous!

Stand, for what you believe in

Stand, for all that is right

Stand, when it's dark all around you

You can be that shining light.

Stand, when troubles come calling

Your gonna be alright

Stand, just reach deep inside you

And be that shining light.

Stand.

I feel the earth shake, raise my voice

I have my soul, I have a choice

I feel it burning, I want more

So what am I waiting for?

-Stand, Billy Ray Cyrus

stupid

argh... its 1.47 am and i'm awake. WHY? stupid joey. make me play audi with her. and i haven't bathed! like oh my shit. so darn late. anyway, i decided to change my skin. it feels very... weird now. but i don't know. it's fun :D and the image right, it's actually pictures that i tinkered with to get them to look sketchy. oh and i finally got to eat my oh-so-desired, oh-so-delicious, and oh-so-cancer-causing donut today.

now i can die happy.

or maybe not.

is it spelt doughnut or donut?

chew, chew, don't swallow

urghhh. my jaw hurts. and my tongue is like... tired. and don't think sick. (but then again, probably no one gets the double entendre, but all the better). i think i've been chewing too much gum... jaw hurts. like i chewed my way to school, and chewed my way back. and some chewing in between.

of course, it wasn't the same piece of gum. that'd be like... gross.

and my sis and her friends are singing like... weird songs in the room next door. sounds a little like nanabanana nanabanana something something something. something and nabana, something something something. which is just plain disturbing.

oh and the attempt to do chinese sia at ying's house today was an utter failure. we sort of... got distracted. but ying got distracted first! she was painting her nails. and i uhh... was doing a teeny weeny bit of chinese until polldaddy hung on me. that sucked.

and i'm having a hell of a time trying to get the colour of this skin to work... so retarded... ah wells i think i'll submit it, though i dont expect the comments to be good, seeing as the models in the image are well... weird.

do they have white chocolate chocolate chip cookies?

told ya so

sotd for the 25th is a joke... but what the heck. too many of these self-downloaders are popping up. but flaming doesnt make a diff. we can't remove the fake downloads, we can't give another skin the sotd title.

bummer that.

potter puppet pals!

hahas. i was watching the videos again and THEY ROCK. snape rocks! hahas. it's a pity only dumbledore pops around nude, i mean if severus had a nude scene, i bet the number of views will like sky rocket. hahas. voldemort sings cool songs :D avada kedavra!

ohhh that reminds me, i need a good fanfiction to read! pam was reading this one about malfoy and harry which i dont mind... but i need some severus goodness! :X this is infatuation bordering on obsession but what the heck.

anyway, today chinese supplementary wasn't tooo bad. lao shi was quite nice and let me and ying go buy lunch cause we hadn't eaten. then just went through some work. i need to do my book review! and the physics blog needs help. i'm thinking of just completely restarting everything but that takes too much time.

oh and i think i'm supposed to do something about get hyped but damn, i don't want to. anw... major note to self. i need to complete:

CHINESE BOOK REVIEW

MATHS AMES

BIOLOGY SIA REPORT

CHINESE SIA REPORT

PHYSICS ONLINE JOURNAL

CHEMISTY WORKSHEETS 12 - 16

MATHS WORKSHEETS 11.1 AND 11.2

CHINESE LECTURE ASSIGNMENT

HUMANITIES ASSIGNMENT

HUMANITIES LITERATURE REVIEW

& MORE THAT I CANT REMEMBER :X

bleargh. so much to do, and so little time. and they say it's the holidays. what holidays? urgh. *headache* and i'll probably end up doing my work last minute. i swear, in the last week you'll see me freaking out over all my work. again.

good moorrrrrrrrrning~

zzz. ushering was dammnnnnn sian. and damn warm too. stuck in the basement carpark with all the exhaust fumes. and mark shone drives a really cool car. it's like... short. like those old vintage cars thing. and i saw mrs lai's son. or at least i think it was. should be bah, and he... looks weird. :X

after that went to support the arena thing... and we spent so darn long waiting to get in. like standing around sweating buckets in the carpark (again!).


from today onwards, i hate underground carparks.


and my cat keeps jumping out the window. bleargh.

sigh. physics sia blog need work. oh dear. du shu bao gao and ames (still not done, again). man this sucks. what a horrid way to start of the holidays.

and still got chinese supplementary on monday.

heh heh. my favourite is the first one. go comment if you have time :D www.blogskins.com/me/dancingsheep. hehheh self -plugging.

happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.-harry potter